CHAPTER 90: CHAPTER NINETY: I WANT TO MOVE OUT

Christy’s POV

He just stared at me without giving me a response.

"Can’t I go out and associate with people now?" I asked him angrily.

"You can go out, I am not stopping you from meeting people. I want you to never see Curtis again, no matter the reason" he said sternly, like he was lecturing a child or a subordinate.

"Kendrick. I am not your fucking property!" I yelled angrily at him.

"I have gotten an admission into a culinary school and classes will be resuming at the beginning of next month" I informed him with a serious tone.

"And you didn’t see it fit to tell me about it? I really don’t understand you anymore. Is it that you were pretending all along or you just decided to change? Because the woman I fell in love with was never like this" he said angrily, like I didn’t have any rights to make my own decisions.

"Kendrick, I will be twenty one next month and I don’t have anything to show for all my years on this earth! I just want to do something with my life and not spend my entire life being your trophy wife! Is that too much to ask?" I asked him while trying to stop my tears from falling.

"I have a lot that I am dealing with at the company, then there are all these other things that are all happening at the same time. I wish you could be more understanding, Christy" he said with a frustrated expression.

"Kendrick, when will it ever be about me? You are always dealing with a lot, you are stressed, you are under a lot of pressure and so on. When will you look at things from my perspective?"I asked him with tears streaming down my face.

"Where did you get the money for the application and clearance? Did Curtis give it to you? Is that why you are trying to pick a fight with me?!" he asked me with a frown and his tone sounded like he was holding back his anger.

"Kendrick, I am not the helpless Christy that you picked up from a strip club or the one that was homeless! I am Christiana Lancaster, the daughter of the Lancaster family. Do you really think I need to ask others for money when my family will do anything for me?" I asked him angrily as I didn’t know if to continue crying or laughing from the anger I was feeling at the moment.

"So you asked your parents for money? You know they already have a prejudice against me and with you asking them for money, you just proved to them that I am incapable of providing for you" he asked with a frustrated laugh.

"I didn’t ask them for money, my father put me on a monthly allowance" I said, as I didn’t have the strength to continue arguing with him.

He was just being simply unreasonable at the moment and I was tired.

"What did you and Curtis talk about?" he suddenly asked after a few minutes.

"I am tired please" I said and turned my face to continue looking outside the window.

"Curtis is not a good person, I don’t want you to be deceived by him. He is extremely manipulative and will resort to any means to achieve his goals...that’s why you need to tell me what he told you" he said calmly and I just shook my head and chuckled.

It sounded more like he was mentioning his own traits. He just needed to add selfish, possessive and unreasonable for the list to be completed.

"Christy, I am asking for your own good" he said with a serious tone and I finally turned to face him.

"No Kendrick, you are doing it for yourself. You just believe that everyone is out to get you and everything has to always be about you and you are never wrong" I replied nonchalantly.

He gave me a frustrated laugh and ran his fingers through his hair.

"I always do my best to make right decisions and avoid as much regret as possible," he said with a serious expression.

"Right decisions? Like putting a tracker in my phone, having me followed, investigating my entire family, so you would have shit to use against them, just like you did to Kelvin? Are those the right decisions? I asked him angrily and he frowned.

" You went into my study?" he asked me as his frown deepened.

"Why do you have all those files on my family?"I asked him without bothering to answer his own question.

"All of these are just because I asked what you and Curtis talked about?"he asked me and I could see how he was trying to hold back his anger.

It felt like I was talking to a totally different person at the moment and my heart hurt so much that breathing felt so difficult and painful.

"I want to move back home, I need my space" I informed him bluntly.

"What? We have just a little argument and you want to leave?" he asked coldly with a darkened expression.

"It was my fault for not thinking things through before moving in. I love you but it is very evident that only love isn’t enough. I need to adjust to my new life, spend time with my family and meet new people. I need to have a life that I will be proud of and our baby wouldn’t want a weak mother. I know how bad and frustrating it is to have a weak woman as a mother, I have experienced it first hand with my late foster mother, Belinda Scott." I said while rubbing my little baby bump gently.

"You can do all of that without moving out" he said, his voice was more gentle and calm now.

"No Kendrick, the next time I move into your house will be as your wife and that’s if we ever get married. You keep telling me how much you love me but you have never brought up marriage. Do you even have any plans to marry me?" I asked him while staring into his eyes.

"Marriage isn’t something that I want to get into at the moment, we don’t need to rush anything, let’s just let things progress slowly" he said with a hesitant expression and I laughed.

"You love me and want me to stay with you but you don’t want to marry me? Didn’t you promise my parents that you will do everything to make me happy?"I asked him with a smile and he couldn’t reply.

I knew he had a thing against marriage, he thinks it’s a trap.

Am I just going to be a baby mama?

Don’t I have my own reputation and principles?.

"I will move out tomorrow morning. Evans, stop the car at the park ahead, I need to take a walk" I said with a firm tone.

I got out of the car at the park and he didn’t even try to stop me, I laughed bitterly before walking over to a bench.

"I had doubts when I first noticed you but I knew I couldn’t be mistaken. I will recognize you even if you turn to ashes" I voice that I haven’t heard in a long while came from behind me.