CHAPTER 97: CHAPTER NINETY-SEVEN: MY MIND IS MADE UP

Christy’s POV

I stared at my luggage that was all packed and sighed.

I wish things could have gone differently but I need to have a life of my own.

I am tired of being controlled and told what to do. I’m about to become a mother soon.

I gently touched my stomach before getting up and heading to the kitchen to make myself something to eat as I was feeling very hungry and it wouldn’t be good for the baby as I was eating for the both of us now.

I looked at the wall clock and saw that it was almost midnight.

He is always like this, any time things don’t go how he wants, he would stay out late and only return when he was certain that I would be awake.

I made a simple sandwich and grabbed some milk before heading to the sitting room to watch TV as I couldn’t sleep.

I decided to watch a recent movie that lots of people have been talking about online.

I was almost done eating when the front door opened and Kendrick walked in.

I turned my gaze back to the TV and continued watching my movie while finishing my sandwich.

He walked to the living room, stopped and stared at me for a few seconds before heading towards the bedroom without saying anything.

I couldn’t focus on the movie anymore and the voices of the characters were giving me a headache, so I turned it off and decided to go to bed as I would be leaving early in the morning.

On getting to the bedroom, I saw Kendrick sitting on the bed, slowly massaging his temple with a dark expression.

"Aren’t you going to say anything? Why are you being so stubborn?!" he yelled angrily at me when I got into the bed to sleep.

I ignored him and shut my eyes as I did not have the strength to quarrel or argue with him again.

But he definitely wasn’t ready to just let me have my peace.

"Christy!" he yelled as he roughly pulled the blanket off me, causing me to almost fall off the bed.

"What is wrong with you?!" I yelled at him and he just looked at me without any hint of worry in his eyes.

I couldn’t even imagine what would have happened if I had fallen down just now, the baby would have definitely been hurt.

"Do you want to kill my child?!" I yelled at him again and he just laughed.

"Your child? It’s always about you, you just want everything to be about you" he said angrily while glaring at me.

His attitude made my blood boil and I got down from bed to stand in front of him.

"If wanting to go to school and have something to my name is me being selfish, then I am. If trying to be my real self doesn’t make you feel good, then we shouldn’t be together anymore because I can’t continue living a lie!" I yelled at him angrily and his face became even more dark with restrained anger.

"Haven’t I done everything for you? You have what other girls would die for but you don’t appreciate it" he said coldly.

"That’s where you are wrong, I am not other girls, I am Christy Lancaster, the one and only" I replied to him with a smile.

"You..!"

"What about me? All you do is project your insecurities on me. Have you ever thought of what I wanted? Have you sat down with me and asked? No! You just assume that I thought that I will accept everything and be your pet in a golden cage" I interrupted him angrily.

"My insecurities? Do you even know what I have been through? Do you know the pain that I have to hide and act like I am alright?!" he yelled angrily but I just turned my face away.

"You are not the only one that has gone through pain, I have also been there and I have seen the most ugly side of the world. What have you been through?!

Have you stayed for days without food before? Have you been forced to sell yourself or entertain drunks?!" I yelled back at him.

His mother abandoned him and he had to take over the company at a young age. How was that miserable compared to what I went through in the hands of Benjamin and Collette.

"Are we comparing traumas now? Do you think it is easy to run a company at nineteen? Do you think it is fun to stay awake all night against my wishes? Christy I just want you to be more understanding and I don’t want to lose you" his voice grew softer at the end.

My heart tightened sharply when I saw him like this, I knew he hardly ever let his emotions show.

"Christy, I don’t want to fight and I don’t want to lose you again. I know that I have been selfish but I want you to know that I will never hurt you" he held my face and whispered softly but I hid my emotions well.

"So you don’t have a problem with me going to school? And when are you going to make us official?" I asked while looking into his eyes.

He suddenly let go of me and took a step back with a frown.

"If you want to work, I can make you my personal assistant," he said with a serious expression.

Personal assistant?

"With what qualification? What would everyone say about me?" I asked him with a tired laugh.

"Who cares what others say? What matters is what we think" he replied with a convincing tone but I wasn’t buying that shit.

"Do you have any plans to marry me?" I asked him directly as I was done listening to his bullshit.

He didn’t reply and just kept staring at me with an emotionless expression.

"Then we have nothing to talk about. I will be twenty one in a few months time and I expected that at your age, you should have everything figured out for yourself.

So it is very clear to me that I have no place in your plans" I said with a sad smile.

"Marriage isn’t something that I want to get into now and I don’t see the need for it, all that matters is that we love each other and our child will be born soon," he said hurriedly.

I laughed again as I just stared at him mockingly.

Did he love me?

Yes, I am very certain he does but he just can’t fit marrying me in his plans at the moment.

"Kendrick, I am leaving tomorrow, only come to look for me when you are ready to give me a proper status and a proper home for our child" I said before slowly getting back into the bed and covering myself with the blanket.

I could feel his eyes on me but he didn’t say anything or try to convince me to stay and even if he did, my mind was already made up.