[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper
Chapter 207 - 206: Shen Family
CHAPTER 207: CHAPTER 206: SHEN FAMILY
Chapter 206: Shen Family
During the time of the week, it was also during this period that the investigation about Shen Lou for his occurring ability was revealed.
It turns out that their great ancestors from Blue Star were indeed a powerful Taoist Master. For generations, their ancestors were originally a clan for metaphysics. As for how they end up in the military, taoist masters are also just an ordinary person anyway and they couldn’t deal with zergs, thus after the zerg broke out, the new generations had been desperate and joined the military instead of inheriting and continuing the family legacy.
This continued until Blue Stars found the new planet they lived on. And since the most important thing for them at that time was to fight for their lives and think about how to adapt to the new planet, they gradually forgot the original ’job’ they had.
During this period, the special ability that can ’see’ had also disappeared until for the next generations that come, there had been probably no cases like Shen Lou— or just they thought so.
Because when his father Shen Jietang heard this strange phenomena, in addition to the look of surprise, he also expressed a faint look as if something clicked inside his mind.
Afterwards, he confessed something to them.
It turns out that Shen Lou was not the first one to have that ’ability’ inside the family but his sister had.
Shen Zhi? Hearing that made Shen Lou stunned and looked at his father on the other side of the screen with doubt.
"But I’ve never seen her react or said something about this?"
Shen Jietang paused for a second as he looked at his son and sighed. He felt that maybe now is the right time to tell some truths to his son.
"She told me about this when she was young. However, we only thought that she was too stressed or had problems in her mental health and thus tried to consult. She had done therapies but she still kept seeing those things. Later, she gradually got used to it and can now just act indifferently as if nothing happens in her eyes."
Shen Jietang suddenly remembered that the young Shen Zhi almost went crazy for this strange matter. They thought she had just hallucinations and tried various ways and medication to erase what she could ’see’ in her mind. But they couldn’t.
Every night was always a nightmare to her because she can see them frequently and even said that some ’people’ whom she can see will always try to talk to her.
It was a very bizarre situation and they didn’t know how to deal with it. The young Shen Zhi could only tried herself to endure the torture on seeing such things.
It was a trauma.
But they couldn’t do anything.
Now, it seems that all the questions that had been buried inside their minds were finally answered by this young man.
An ability to see the souls of the people who died? Then who were the people that Shen Zhi saw back then?
"I suddenly remembered something." Shen Jietang said and paused for a few seconds before looking at Shen Lou with a serious face. "... your sister can see Black ever since your cat died."
"!!!" Shen Lou’s pupils dilated in shock.
"W-What?!"
"Your sister had indeed seen it. However, she didn’t say that to you because you won’t believe it anyway—"
"But why?! She clearly knows how I treasured my cat but she didn’t say anything. Dad, why is she so selfish—"
"Shen Lou!" Shen Jietang called for the young man’s name with a hint of anger. "You are not allowed to say something to your sister like this!"
"Why can’t I? Just because she’s your favorite child?!" For the rare time again, Shen Lou’s temper went out and he became so sensitive again that he couldn’t control his mouth anymore.
Ever since he was young, all he could remember was how his father would always take his sister to the military and train with her. Even if he knew that it was because their father is cultivating Shen Zhi as his heir, he still couldn’t help but feel jealous.
Thus, during his lonely days, it was Black who accompanied him in his weak and delicate nights. After that, during the day he would always act strong especially in front of He Yan and his family to prove to them that he can be anyone without their love and attention.
This is the reason why he was always sensitive when it comes to Black and has a temper like this.
Even if they thought that he might not believe it, why didn’t they try it?
Black was his companion!
"Shen Lou, I said stop thinking like this."
"But isn’t this the truth? She seems jealous—"
"Maybe she is..." Shen Jietang interrupted him. "But now he has a pet because you seem to care about them more than your own sibling."
"I don’t care about what they did! Especially him!"
"No?" Shen Jeitang couldn’t help but sneered when he heard his son’s firm rejection.
"If it weren’t for your sister, would you have the life you have right now? If not for Shen Zhi’s intervention every time something happened to Shen Lou, would you brat even make it until now?" Shen Jietang decided to not conceal any truths from now on and let Shen Lou face the reality of his life that was saved by Shen Zhi.
"Shen Lou, you were my heir." Shen Jeitang begins his confession in front of everyone.
"It was supposed to be you who had to undergo deep training even for a young age and endured everything he had. But he didn’t because Shen Zhi protected you." Shen Jeitang sighs.
"When you were not born, Shen Zhi had already begun training for herself because everyone just thought that she’s the only one in the family so it was natural to pass everything on to her. However, things changed when you came."
"The elders of the family quickly wanted to choose Shen Lou as the heir to the clan. Shen Lou has more skills than Shen Zhi and it was more helpful to secure the life they have right now." Shen Jietang’s expression turned sorry as he remembered the heavy burden and all the situations that happened.
Just like that, Shen Zhi lost her purpose in life.
Shen Zhi’s world revolved around how to be an heir. She was the only candidate and her father had been training her ever since she remembered. She doesn’t even want to disappoint everyone in the family so she worked harder than anybody else.
During those times, Shen Zhi felt her purpose in life and even with such controlled fate, she was satisfied.
Until Shen Lou came.
The life she had already written down vanished in the air just like that dream didn’t happen in the first place. Shen Zhi’s only way to live disappears.
This was also the time where her nanny Liu revealed her real colors underneath that caring soul she had always been in front of Shen Zhi.
She killed Black, not only to ’avenge’ her, but because her plans were also destroyed when Shen Lu became the heir. She had perfectly thought that since she was the Nanny of the Shen family’s only heir, she would have the preferential treatment everywhere, like a real powerful noble.
She even considered as if she would be the real mastermind to control the Shen Family because she can ’control’ Shen Zhi.
Her greed became malicious and she killed Black. Thanks to this, Shen Lou became uninterested in being an heir. He began to rebel until he decided to enter the entertainment industry.
This made Shen Zhi go back as the heir again. Because everyone thought that since the Shen Lou wouldn’t do it, they could just put back the ’trash’ they discarded as if nothing happened.
As if all the despair and loneliness that Shen Zhi felt was never important because she has the position again anyway.
This rollercoaster of emotions became a heavy burden that went straight into Shen Zhi’s heart and soul. When she became the heir, she was no longer enthusiastic nor did the former Shen Zhi come back too.
She was like a robot who only functioned to do the controlled fate that others want her to do.
On the other hand, Shen Zhi can actually reject the position again. Just like the elders finally agreed to Shen Lou’s rejection, if they saw her eagerness, they could only reluctantly agree too. But Shen Zhi didn’t because she knew that if she rejected them, they would definitely pester Shen Lou or pressure her father to either find a way to produce an heir or to find a suitable person within the family.
Both options can never be considered. Their father loved his wife and will never remarry for the sake of producing an heir nor their pride allows them to agree and find someone to manage the family.
Thus, Shen Zhi starts carrying all the burden behind her silently even until this present.
"Do you know how precious Nanny Liu is in her life? Even though she knew that there’s a hint of greed and maliciousness, that woman took care of her ever since she was a child, Shen Zhi was still attached to her. But what did she do that time?" Shen Jietang looked at his son. "Didn’t she just let go of her for you?"
"Shen Zhi could have just rejected you, but as always she didn’t for you." Shen Lou on the other side of the screen became extremely silent after hearing the sudden truth.
"Shen Lou, your sister had sacrificed too much so you can be free and choose the life you wanted. Don’t ever say that your sister ever cared but she is, and she always will. Remember that."
"..." Silence envelops their call as Shen Lou absorbs all the truth inside him.
His head hung low and he clenched his fist tightly before asking, "Where is she?"
This made Shen Jietang pause again.
"... Dad?" Shen Lou asked with a bad premonition inside him.
"She went to war again with the Marshal. As for when they will come back... no one knows."
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