When I arrived at Choi Sung-hoon’s house, I changed into comfortable clothes and went out to the living room. I found the owner of the house sitting on a chair in front of the fireplace, cautiously looking at the tablet PC. He was so handsome with his hair down and casual attire that I was taken aback and my heart was pounding hard.?

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Even though the house was warm as spring, I sat in front of the fireplace. It was reminiscent of Choi Sung-hoon’s home in Bucheon.?

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On the table in front of the fireplace lay the marriage certificate. When did he bring it… A pen was neatly placed next to it.?

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When I pretended not to notice, Choi Sung-hoon said,?

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“Seo-yu ssi, aren’t you tired? It’s going to hurt a lot, so how about sleeping?”?

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“It’s not even 9 o’clock yet. I don’t want to sleep yet because I don’t want to waste my time.”?

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“…Then let’s read a book together.”?

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Heh, reading a book. He read a book with such a scar on his cheek.?

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Choi Sung-hoon dragged his chair over to me and sat. And I used a tablet or something to open the book file. When I saw the title, I laughed to myself.?

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It was a book that was recommended to me when I first started seeing a psychiatric counselor. This was a book that would aid in the healing of your wounds. I hadn’t expected to see it after ten years.?

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“I read it and it was very good. You should read it as well, Seo-yu ssi.”?

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“I stopped reading books and smoking when I graduated from high school, but Choi Sung-hoon recommended it, so I’ll read it.”?

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“…” ?

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A worry-filled wrinkle appeared again between Choi Sung-hoon’s brows, and I assumed he didn’t like something I said. Something must have bothered him because he was sensitive about me.?

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We put our heads together and began reading.?

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Warm, drowsy, and peaceful… I felt like I was going to get drunk in the atmosphere.?

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I raised my head after a long period of reading because I had a stiff neck.?

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“Should I give you a paper book if you can’t concentrate?”?

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“Whoa… Look. I read three lines. You’ll get a headache if you read for too long, so let’s take a break.”?

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“…”?

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Choi Sung-hoon smiled and looked at me with loving eyes. Another thing he adored about me…?

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In fact, it was also true that I couldn’t concentrate. I have one thing to ask him.?

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I’ve wanted to ask since I heard the story, but something big happened and I couldn’t.?

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I put down what I was holding and looked at Choi Sung-hoon. Just in time, I made eye contact with Choi Sung-hoon, who was staring at me. Choi Sung-hoon was always paying attention to me, so when I looked at him, our gazes quickly met.?

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“I heard it from mother… When did you start counseling?”?

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“…”?

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Choi Sung-hoon raised one eyebrow and then relaxed his mouth. He seemed surprised to hear the unexpected words, but soon he spoke for me, who was waiting for a response.?

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“It hasn’t been long. Since you were admitted to the hospital and after learning that the fetus’s life was in danger.”?

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“Did you start getting counseling so that you don’t feel sad after losing Kongkongi?”?

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“No, to be sad.”?

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Choi Sung-hoon’s gaze was very warm as he looked at me.?

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I made sure he wouldn’t be offended if I asked him something very private, and, as expected, he was as gentle as warm milk.?

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“When I first heard about it, I thought you’d be sad if the fetus ended up gone, but I wouldn’t be.”?

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“…”?

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“I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to comfort you. So I received counseling to be sad and to sympathize with your sadness. So that I’ll be able to comfort you.”?

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“…”?

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“Of course, I’m learning a lot of other things as well. As Seo-yu ssi knows, I’m not good with emotions, so I may inadvertently hurt and made you misunderstand in the future. I don’t want it to happen again, so I try to do my best.”?

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“…”?

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“Someday… so that you can trust me.”?

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After saying that Choi Sung-hoon turned his gaze to the paper on the table.?

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A marriage certificate with one blank side.?

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As if that side would be filled if he had my trust.?

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“I have to talk to her separately. So that Seo-yu ssi doesn’t have to worry about something like that.”?

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“Mother? Don’t… Then it would be obvious I said it. And mother said it by mistake as well. She mistook me for the person who persuaded Choi Sung-hoon ssi to get counseling. I can’t be that nosy.”?

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“Of course, if Seo-yu ssi advised me to go, I would have gotten it immediately. It can’t be classified as nosy.”?

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“… Do you think counseling is effective?”?

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“Well. What do you think, Seo-yu ssi?”?

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I stood up and placed the tablet on the table. And when I was about to sat in Choi Sung-hoon’s arms, he opened his arms and hugged me. It was a good thing because he was a big guy who could easily embrace the 178cm Omega.?

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I hugged him, he hugged me and looked into my eyes. Choi Sung-hoon’s eyes were overflowing with warmth.?

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“I don’t know. If it’s effective… ”?

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“Oh… I’ll try my best.”?

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“It’s not like that, Choi Sung-hoon was already a warm person before the consultation. Because you’ve always been warm to me… I don’t know.”?

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Whether he liked or disliked my answer, Choi Sung-hoon made a mysterious expression.?

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We approached each other while still staring at each other and kissing, regardless of who went first.?

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That night, I cried again while sleeping on Choi Sung-hoon’s arm pillow. Choi Sung-hoon, who I thought was sleeping, immediately woke up and turned on the stand light, and hugged me.?

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As I felt the pat on my back, I thought of many things.?

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Choi Sung-hoon was making an effort. Someone who was as clumsy as that.?

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For my own sake.?

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So far, I’ve never read a book recommended by my counselor. I’ve never been serious about counseling, and if I was given medicine, I just ate it.?

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He didn’t even ask me to go to counseling because he was skeptical of it. As if he knows I’ve already counseled myself to the point of exhaustion.?

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But now I thought about getting counseling.?

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It was a night filled with many thoughts.?

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After spending a few days luxuriously at Choi Sung-hoon’s house, I went to the center for a post-surgery check-up.?

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Choi Sung-hoon tried to make time somehow, but he couldn’t accompany me to the hospital because he was too busy. At the same time, a light spring rain was falling, so he was very sorry. Instead, I went to the hospital while being guarded by the gangster-like brother.?

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The test results were very good, and the doctor said there was no need to come again. However, the mustached gangster-like brother was very solemn-.?

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“Can I tell Director Choi that Professor Chae said he doesn’t need to come again?”?

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When asked, the doctor reversed his words.?

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“After all, it’s not enough to get tested once… I could be doing it carelessly… Let’s come one more time. Yes… Let’s do that.”?

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I wondered for a moment that I wouldn’t have to attend the examination after today.?

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The doctor said that my nutritional status was not good, so I went up to the special room where I had been staying for three weeks and was given an IV.?

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I slept while drooling.?

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It was 5 p.m. when I drove back to Choi Sung-hoon’s house in the car driven by the gangster-like brother. Choi Sung-hoon usually leaves work at 3 p.m., but something appears to have happened at the company today.?

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– I’m sorry. Something happened at the factory in Yangju. I won’t be home late.?

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“Don’t worry about me. If you’re really sorry, please take selfies from time to time and send them to me.”?

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– A…selfie.?

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“Yes! I‘ll be waiting for you.”?

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Choi Sung-hoon sent a selfie five minutes after hanging up the phone. As I looked at the tightly closed mouth and blunt eyes, I burst out laughing.?

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While I was waiting, I ate a meal prepared by the chef, read some books, and jumped into bed. The marriage certificate, which waiting to be filled on one side, was still on the bed. I was amazed again as I looked over the personal information of Choi Sung-hoon that I had read and memorized.?

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How could such a person like me… It seems that the world must also live to know.?

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As I smiled, I realized that one of my hands was on my lower abdomen. It became a habit in two weeks.?

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Kongkongi stayed like a dream for two weeks and then disappeared.?

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Now it was time for me to make up my mind.?

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Then my phone vibrated. I thought it was Choi Sung-hoon’s selfie, but it was actually a phone call. It was from Ho-in.?

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“Hello.”?

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– Oh, it’s me, Seo-yu ssi. This is Park Ho-in.?

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“Yes, it’s been a while.”?

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– Yeah, I just… I heard from your co-workers… Really… I’m sorry…?

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It was clear that he had only just heard it. He was shocked and didn’t know what to do. The same as Won-jo and Sung-hyun.?

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He was a person who was friendly and warm. I was surprised at times by his change, but he was a  warm person in the end. Always consistently.?

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“Kongkonggi must have gone to a good place. Thank you, Ho-in ssi.”?

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-…Did your Alpha give you a lot of comforts??

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“Yes, a lot. He comforted me more than my sorrow. I wouldn’t have endured it without him.”?

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I was so comforted that I wondered if I should act even sadder. I was so comforted that my eyes transformed into crucian carp.?

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– Seo-yu’s ssi voice is so warm.?

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Ho-in’s voice had a little cold tone to it.?

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-… He’s an extremely dominant Alpha, it’s like he’s really in love.?

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“That’s right, Ho-in ssi. He also loves me.”?

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The sound of breathing in my ensuing words came over the phone. I said it while looking at the three words ‘Choi Sung-hoon’s’ in the marriage certificate.?

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“An extremely dominant Alpha and a recessive Omega, maybe an Omega and an Omega. I suppose it doesn’t matter in the face of love. As Ho-in said before. I found out too late.”?

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-…You have changed, Seo-yu ssi. You’ve changed a lot.?

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“I’ve changed?”?

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– Yes, you’ve changed. For the better… I guess that person changed Seo-yu ssi.?

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Ho-in’s voice cracked.?

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I could see it now with my eyes open. The reason for Park Ho-in’s strange behavior.?

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This was the reason why such a gentle and kind person spoke harshly to me. I think I’ve figured it out.?

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At the same time, I realized that I should pretend I didn’t know what I had just noticed for the rest of my life.?

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– I’m glad you’re happy. Are you planning to return to work now??

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“No, I left the company altogether.”?

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– So what are you going to do now??

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That was the problem that kept me locked up.?

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What to do now and what to do next.?

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… I kept thinking.?

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– Even if it is impossible to return to work, please drop by at least once… I really want to apologize. In the meantime, about my words.?

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“Of course. I’ll stop by later, so please make some delicious citron tea. At that time, I will go with Choi Sung-hoon.”?

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-…Yes, Seo-yu ssi.?

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He was the one who sent me a bad message while I was in the hospital, but now that I found out the reason, I could understand him.?

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I wanted to tell Choi Sung-hoon that I could now understand what I would not have understood for the rest of my life if I hadn’t changed, but I’ll have to put up with it.?

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After I hung up the phone, I closed my eyes and placed my hand on my chest to feel my heartbeat.?

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I’ve made my decision.?

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‘You have changed, Seo-yu ssi. You’ve changed a lot.’?

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Because I’ve changed.?

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I called Choi Sung-hoon. He picked it up as soon as it rang twice.?

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– Seo-yu ssi.?

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“Where are you now?”?

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– I’m still in Yangju. I’ll be arriving after midnight because I’m traveling by car.?

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“What time is it at midnight? Where are you coming from? What kind of car did you drive?”?

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-… If you intend to pick me up, please wait at home because it is raining and cold.?

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“Ah.”?

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I hadn’t considered picking him up, but I was surprised because Choi Sung-hoon was making such significant progress. It was so adorable that I thought I was going to die. I wanted to record every conversation because it was so lovely.?

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My heart was racing. I was overwhelmed as the tip of my nose turned sour with such vigor. I wasn’t a crybaby.?

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“Choi Sung-hoon ssi, do you know this?”?

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– This??

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“I think I like Choi Sung-hoon ssi.”?

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-…Did you realize it now??

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He pretends to respond calmly, but I know he paused for a moment. Choi Sung-hoon responded that he had known for a long time and that I still had a long way to go before I could follow him.?

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Choi Sung-hoon was so stupid that he has no idea how much I love him. I love him enough to make a decision.?

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“I’m going to say goodbye now, Choi Sung-hoon ssi.”?

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What??

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“Thank you so much for everything you’ve done so far. When you’re at your happiest, it’s easy to get into an accident, so drive carefully. Okay??

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– What do you mean? What do you mean goodbye??

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I told him I loved him and then hung up because he was busy. I received a call right away, but I was in a rush and did not answer.?

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I was ready to go out right away.?

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After putting on clothes, I packed Kongkongi’s shoes and moved the marriage certificate onto the table. So that Choi Sung-hoon could see it as soon as he comes back.?

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I ran through the residential area in Hannam-dong with an umbrella. By the time I arrived by the road, a black car ran at a tremendous speed from afar and almost got into an accident. It dashed to a nearby building’s parking lot and escaped the crisis.?

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Choi Sung-hoon must drive safely.?

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I was going to stop by my house, but I got on the bus as soon as I got off. The area was surrounded by familiar gangster-like brothers. If they found me, they would immediately seize me and bring me back home to Hannam-dong.?

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I hopped back on the bus and left the neighborhood. I’d been alive far too long, so I had a lot of memories of my mother, father, and older brother in many places.?

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A two-story chartered house where I couldn’t throw away a toothbrush or a spoon, a sushi restaurant where my father insisted on eating out occasionally, a PC room where I was with my older brother during his rebellious days, and the market entrance where my mother asked me to pick her up saying she had a lot of luggage.?

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I was sad just passing by, and I was sad just being there, so I never went to a sushi restaurant, PC room, or market. I haven’t been anywhere in the neighborhood in ten years. It was time to say goodbye to places I tried to erase from my mind but couldn’t.?

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The bus goes around the neighborhood and arrived at its destination after a while.?

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It was a dark and audacious night, but there were a lot of people waiting at the train station for the last train. I was the only one who got off.?

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The rain was falling heavily. I considered opening an umbrella, but it didn’t come very often, so I just walked in the rain.?

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As I walked slowly there, I looked around the scenery with regret.?

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My heart has changed since last year, but the scenery I could see has not.?

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The river was flowing under the bridge.?

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The surface of the black water, swaying in the rain, resembled the night sky.?

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I gripped the railing firmly.?

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Many thoughts raced through my mind, but that was all I did.