h4Chapter 795: 795-Stuck In My Own Body/h4

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    I was crying as I stood on the 10th floor, and the entity told me she could help me. I had been so restless. All day I tried to act like I was fine, focusing on food and everything, but then reality would hit me, how I thought I was the reason our mate bond broke.

    But Gavin had hidden it for so long. He was the one who cheated, then manipted me into cheating first, just for the show. It made me feel like I never had any true or honest friends. Hnie was there, but Gavin? How could he have done this to me?

    I was losing my mind. I wanted someone to take a stand for me, a firm stand, because Gavin was just living a normal life. He had new friends now, he never faced consequences. And then I thought, why would anyone ever take a stand for me? I wasn’t special. I was never special. This is what I meant when I told Hnie that she was.

    I woke up hysterically crying. I wanted my friend Hnie with me, but she wasn’t around. So I thought I’d just go look for her. She never usually left the dorm room at night, so I worried. Carrying my own pain and fear for her safety, I took the elevator.

    That’s when I saw the 10th floor button. I couldn’t help but push the button. I was lonely. I needed someone to talk to, someone to remind me I was still beautiful, that I still had worth.

    And then the entity started to speak to me. She was so convincing. She told me my life was over, that nobody cared for me. That Gavin would make new friends, and eventually they would steal Hnie from me. I would be the odd one left out, watching them grow together, be happy, go to parties, enjoy every day at the academy, while I stayed a loner nobody wanted.

    She told me she could fix my life. If I let her in, just for a few minutes, she would help me. Then I began to hear a manly voice too. With my own pain, my hysteria, and then these voices, I couldn’t help but finally yell, "Fine, take it, take my body! But then I want it back in a few minutes!" I screamed.

    The minute I said that, it was like that was all it needed to hear. A ck smoke started to attack me. It forced its way into my mouth. The pressure was brutal, crushing my bones. Every inch of me ached. I started to fight back. I didn’t want this anymore. I changed my mind. I didn’t want this thing inside me.

    Because it wasn’t alone. Something else came with it. Something that silenced my wolf the moment it entered. And I was terrified.

    Still, it managed to creep into me. I opened my eyes to a blur. My body was barely mine anymore.

    "It’s okay," she whispered. "In a few minutes, we will take over your body. You can follow the light. Just leave. This world has nothing left for you. But I will live as Lucy. I will give you the strength and the power."

    As she yapped on, I shook my head, shaking inside her. Inside.

    "No. This is not what I wanted. I want to live as me. I don’t want somebody else carrying on the Lucy legacy. What the fuck—get out!" I screamed.

    That’s when the real scare hit me. I realized I no longer had as much control over my own body as before.

    Once I realized she wasn’t letting go of my body, with the little strength I still had left, strength I was actively losing, I forced myself to jump off the 10th floor. I wanted to end myself because I knew what mistake I had made. If this entity left with my body, she would cause so much harm. I felt guilty, and this was the only way I could redeem my mistake.

    But it didn’t work. I ended up in aa, stuck in my dreand with the twins who tortured me day in and day out, demanding I leave this body so they could wake up. I refused to give in. The fact that the power was still with me gave me just enough courage to keep fighting. So I stayed in thea.

    But not for long. I heard the voices of my friends, and I couldn’t hold on. The torture was too much. In my dreand, they tied me to trees, to beds, to anything, burning my legs and my body nonstop until I was too weak to decide whether I wanted to wake up or stay.

    The entity, the female one, took over my body and woke up. But I stayed awake inside the consciousness, like a wolf would be. That was all the power I had left: just to be in her head. I could feel her brother pushing against me, trying to shut me out so he could be the new wolf after silencing mine.

    I was finally awake. My friends were with me, but the entity started ruining everything. She was actively making me lose friends, and of course, she became close with the one person just like her—fucking Sydney. I hated her. So I started manipting the entity, pushing her away from Sydney. I’d somehow convince her to do the right thing, to leave Sydney behind. It was hard, because sooner orter she would wake up and realize I was ying her.

    But now, I was fading. Just a dim light. I saw and heard everything, but I couldn’t do a damn thing for my friends. I watched Gavin get too close to Salem. I watched my friends befriend Salem. And honestly? I was impressed by her redemption arc. I even cried when she died. I felt so guilty, because I never got the chance to be her friend. I know it sounds crazy, and I didn’t want to be some overly sweet person, but Salem really had redeemed herself. And I thought maybe, maybe it was for the right thing. Gavin was happier with her.

    But in the end, he paid a heavy price. I had been angry with him in the past, but I would never wish that kind of harm on him. I don’t think it was punishment for betraying me, I think it was just unfair, what happened to him. And that made me even angrier at the entity. Because now, she had her eyes on Hnie’s husband.

    The only sad part was that everyone moved on, they got to live ahead while my life has stopped.