As a result, even if I went to this school, there was no change.

No, maybe I''m not going to change from the beginning.

Good or bad, I am the same as before.

The reason is very simple.

Because I know myself well. I know all the advantages and disadvantages.

I also know that boys and girls don''t like me.

I know everything clearly, but I''m not going to change.

But it doesn''t matter.

Because I don''t feel that pain anymore.

It''s because I''m looking forward to it.

I walked out of the shower set up in the guest room, even the water drops on my wet skin, so I stood naked in front of the mirror. How many times have I thought about breaking a mirror?

Every time I see an old injury to my flank, the horrible past will show its head.

I felt dizzy and nauseous, so I held up the washstand and vomited.

Why do I have to go through that?

Why do I have to suffer like this?

Why, why, why - I keep repeating that.

Repeat this meaningless sentence.

The past cannot be changed.

No one can change.

The gods are cruel.

My personality was destroyed after that nightmare, and I lost my youth, my friends and myself.

I have to correct that mistake.

No matter how annoying it is, it''s better than encountering the same situation again.

I don''t need any youth.

I don''t need any friends.

It''s important to protect yourself.

For this reason, I will do everything necessary.

I''m a parasite, a weak creature that can''t live on its own.