A phone call from Ding Ge turned my world from sunny to grey. I felt a layer of gloom all over me.

    I kept thinking about how to apologize to Ding Ge, but I had no idea. The brain seemed to have short-circuited.

    "Uncle, what are you doing?" At this moment, Zhan came out of the house.

    I quickly squeezed out a smile and said, "It''s okay. Take a call. Are you hungry?"

    "Not hungry." Zhan shook his head.

    "Okay, tell uncle when you''re hungry."

    "Yes."

    Then I put away the sadness in my heart and walked back to the kitchen. Because I was working hours, I didn''t want my personal feelings to affect everyone, especially the customers, so I didn''t let anyone notice my sadness.

    However, my condition has changed a little, which is inevitable. I can only hide it as much as possible.

    After the work, everyone began to eat, because they had been busy for so long, and they were really hungry, I filled a large bowl of rice to eat.

    Instead of sitting at the table and eating with everyone, I went to the backyard and squatted on the table to eat by myself.

    At this moment, Jiang Yan came to me.

    I suddenly remembered that Jiang Yan was busy telling me his story. Instead of squatting down, he sat down beside me with a horse and said to me, "It''s not good for you to squat down and eat. Your stomach is full. Can you feel comfortable?"

    "It''s okay. I do it occasionally." I smiled.

    Jiang Yan also smiled and said, "I really envy you skinny people. I can''t even squat there to eat. It''s too uncomfortable."

    "Then sit down. Actually, it''s better to sit down." I know what Jiang Yan said.

    "Do you believe me when I say I used to be skinny?" Jiang Yan laughed and looked at me.

    "Yes, of course!"

    Jiang Yan was a man who liked to laugh, as if he could hear his bright laughter every day, as if he had no worries. He said, "I was very thin when I married your sister-in-law. This marriage is not going to work. In the first two months, I gained nearly 20 pounds. People tend to get fat when they get married and beer bellies when they reach middle age."

    I picked up the rice in the bowl and turned to look at Jiang Yan, imagining what Jiang Yan looked like when he was thin.

    "Two years ago," Jiang Yan''s face was full of memories. I knew he was beginning to tell his story, so I listened quietly. I''m the only son in the family, old and young, all pointing at me, but I have a physical problem, my arm is broken, this chef, his hand is broken, what do you think this is?"

    Jiang Yan put down the bowl and chopsticks in his hand and took out a cigarette from his pocket. But he couldn''t find the lighter. Instead, I had a match on me and lit it for Jiang Yan.

    Jiang Yan said, "It was really hard back then. It wasn''t just any ordinary hardship! But I don''t think the same as you do. I never thought about how to separate with my daughter-in-law. Who hasn''t had a hard time yet? Don''t you think that couples should share the joys and sorrows together and fly separately in the face of disaster? What kind of husband and wife is that? So, Xing Yun, it''s not like my brother said that you can''t just think about yourself when something happens. Sometimes it''s just the two of you. You can''t help it. Who let you two be together?"

    I smiled bitterly but didn''t say anything.

    Jiang Yan took a puff of his cigarette and continued, "My hand is seriously injured. I can''t go out for about seven or eight months. I have a left hand, but my left hand is broken. My right hand can''t do anything. I can''t even do a job at home. I''m really like a cripple. At that time, she treated my mother with a protruding lumbar disc and didn''t spend much money. Her daughter had to go to school and didn''t save money at all. So, my wife came out to find a job. The dumpling factory made dumplings for people, and only two or three thousand yuan a month. Less in the first two months. At that time, our family lived on your sister-in-law''s salary. Besides showing me the injuries, the rest of the food and money is a nervous thing! I''m not afraid of your jokes. I''m looking forward to your sister-in-law''s salary every month. The first few days of her salary are better. By the time next month''s salary is paid, the money will be spent almost. The last few days are really poor. Sometimes it''s really clean. The inside of that wallet is really cleaner than the face. We can only buy a dish when the salary is paid down to get the money."

    Recalling the past, Jiang Yan, who loved to laugh, could not help but show some pain on his face, and his expression was slightly moved. He choked and said with difficulty, "Difficult, that''s really difficult! I couldn''t get out of the house. I was in such a mood that I wanted to kill myself so I wouldn''t have to drag the family down. But how can I? I can''t do this without my family."

    "Thanks to your sister-in-law. If it weren''t for your sister-in-law, we wouldn''t have been able to live. At that time, it was really difficult for your sister-in-law. Many times, she asked for overtime. It would take more than an hour to ride to the dumpling factory every day. It would take 14 or 15 hours to work overtime and go back and forth every day. What do you mean? Did you say it was hard or not? I was at home and watched my daughter-in-law get so tired outside. I..."

    Speaking of this, jiang yan was even more agitated, and tears welled up in the eyes of an old man.

    He covered his face, and I couldn''t help but sigh. I patted Jiang Yan on the back and said, "It''s all over Brother Jiang."

    After a while, Jiang Yan looked up with a smile on his face and said, "Hey, it''s really shameless."

    I comforted him, "You just said that it''s not difficult for anyone. You''re doing well now. You''re earning money outside, and sister-in-law is taking care of the baby at home."

    Jiang yan nodded and smiled, "Yes. Do you know? Didn''t I open a small restaurant in my own house before you came to see me? Hey, I thought I could earn more at home than outside. Who knew it would be over again? Your sister-in-law also told me that if I go out to work, we can work hard together. I told you, why would you want you with such a big belly? Honestly, even if your sister-in-law wasn''t pregnant, I wouldn''t let her go out again. I''m good at it. As long as I can go out and earn money, how can I let your sister-in-law out? She just needs to take care of her family."

    "Yes." I nodded.

    "Really. When I broke my bone, I swore that when my hand was healed, I would never let your sister-in-law come out to suffer that again. I have to carry this family!"

    "Men!"

    I couldn''t help but stretch out my thumb and exclaim.

    In fact, many women hate macho or something. But I feel that this kind of macho chauvinism, which props up the whole family, protects the family, shields the family from the wind and rain, and bears all the hardships alone, is really very admirable!

    Jiang Yan smiled and said to me, "Xing Yun, husband and wife? What is a husband and wife? What kind of husband and wife are they that can enjoy happiness together? Only when they can share hardships together can they be called a real husband and wife! It''s my honor to marry your sister-in-law! Tell me, how can I leave her?"

    I agree with what Jiang Yan said. I remembered what my cousin said before. There were very few couples who could share weal and woe together.

    And me?

    Back then, I had a girlfriend who was willing to share the burden with me, but I gave her up without any leeway.

    Now, after listening to jiang yan''s story, I am even more confused.

    At this moment, I suddenly felt that what I thought before was all wrong, and that what I did was completely wrong!

    At that time, I should have faced it with Ding Ge. What was left for us was not necessarily a life of hardship, but also the days when we faced each other''s hardships together.

    At this moment, I really regretted it. For the first time, I regretted my decision!

    I feel so stupid!

    After all this time, how much time I missed with Ding Ge, I felt bitter thinking about it.

    At this moment, I really felt like drinking dinger to get back together immediately. I really wanted to abandon all the considerations and plans. I wanted to return to Ding Ge immediately, repent of my stupidity back then, and ask Ding Ge for forgiveness.

    But right now, let''s not say if she''ll forgive me for that, but think about how things are going to work out right now.

    I sighed, and the impulse that had just surged had mostly dissipated.

    "If there''s still room for you to stay, think about it."

    As I pondered, Jiang Yan patted me on the shoulder and left.

    At this moment, my phone rang again. I saw that it was Lin Ya.

    I know why Lin Ya called me. Needless to say, she must know about me and Ding Ge.

    When I answered the phone, Lin Ya asked, "Did you and Ding Ge fight?"

    "Do you think that''s a fight?" There was a hint of helplessness in the corner of my mouth.

    "Hey, why are you trying to persuade Ding Ge to go home? I can, but you can''t, okay? I wonder, how could Mother of Dingge find you?"

    "How would I know?" That was indeed a coincidence.

    "Hey, tell me about you! Don''t you know why Ding Ge didn''t come home and live? Don''t you understand why she did this? Well, you persuaded her to go home. What does that mean? What does that mean? What''s on your mind? Which side are you on?"

    I sighed and said with some confusion, "What happened? That day, dinger was ill. Gastroenteritis. I just hope it''s not convenient for her to stay at home. She has someone to take care of and someone to care about. No one knows if he''s sick."

    Lin Ya sighed, his tone softened a lot, and then said, "I know what you mean. But now, the point is that Ding Ge doesn''t understand. She''s angry. I can''t help you this time. You, please explain and coax her."

    Hanging up the phone, my heart became more anxious, and my feet kept moving on the ground. After thinking about it, I called Ding Ge.

    It''s not a big deal. I think I can explain it clearly. Ding Ge was just angry. She should be able to listen to what I say now.

    "Sorry, the number you dialed is on the line, sorry..."

    I felt like I was hit by a door and hung up?

    But I didn''t give up and called again.

    "Sorry, the number you dialed is turned off."

    An emotionless voice with a hint of coldness and sarcasm came towards me!