Chapter 7: 07 - Numb

    Even though I was excited to record the song today, I still had to go about my normal routine until after I finished helping Ethan with his homework.

    Surprisingly, with the help I''d given him these past few days, Ethan was starting to need less and less help.

    As I helped him catch up a little on things he should have learned but hadn''t yet understood, now that he knew more about these things, it was much easier to teach him his homework since he already had the basis formed to learn these things.

    Just like the other days, when I finished teaching Ethan his homework, I picked up my guitar and started tuning it.

    I had already requested the copyright for the song I want to sing yesterday, which gives me the right to use that song from today onwards without any worries.

    Of the $181 that I had saved, in the last few days I managed to sell enough artworks to raise $493, ??and that''s because I only wanted to make two artworks a day, as the number of customers queuing up to get an artwork was increasing every day.

    I even decided to increase the price for the next arts, but they still continued to queue, especially when they saw that my art was getting better and better as my Skill level rose and I got used to drawing this style of characters.

    Of the $493 I had saved, I had to spend $130 to get the copyright for the song I was going to sing.

    Thinking about how much money I could potentially earn from the video for this song, this was clearly a waste of money, but my focus would not be on the income I would earn from views of the video, but on how much I could earn later on from playing shows. Th/e most uptodate novels are published on n0velbj)n(.)co/m

    So, asking Ethan to stay downstairs with my mom, I finally started strumming my guitar, feeling the beat of the song I wanted to play.

    I didn''t choose this song because it was the most successful song I knew, nor because it was the song that was most successful before I came into this world, but the song that most resonated with me in the most difficult times I went through. in my previous world.

    And oddly enough, in the memories I reviewed of the old Noah from this world, if he had this song it would also have resonated very well with what he was going through here.

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    "I''m drained playing the role you expect...

    Lost in the hush beneath the willow''s affect..."

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    When I started to sing this part, even after so long, I felt like my voice was getting heavier, while my nose was burning, but I still continued singing.

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    "Uncertain of the expectations you reflect...

    Bearing the weight in shoes, your script has decked..."

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    Everything my father put me through, and everything I tried to do to get even the slightest bit of attention from him...

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    "Each step I take feels like an earth-shattering quake.

    Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

    I''ve become so numb.

    Can''t feel the drum.

    Worn out and tired.

    Much more inspired.

    Transforming into this.

    All I long to do.

    Is be genuinely me.

    And less like you."

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    (NunuNote: You know what this song is, you also know why it''s different, I had to edit the song to make it more original, but the message the lyrics send is still the same XD)

    When I finally sang the chorus of the song, I couldn''t help it and let the little drops of tears fall from my eyes.

    I wanted to sing a more upbeat song, even a song about some heartbreak, since I wouldn''t be able to relate to it and I would be able to remain impartial, but something in me asked me to sing this song.

    I had no idea where this desire to sing this song was coming from, until when I finished singing everything, I heard the sound of the door slowly opening.

    Just like me, there was a crying face on the other side of the door, and then I finally understood why there was something in me wanting me to sing this.

    This was the Noah of this world, who probably understood the lyrics to this song and knew that there was someone in this house who really needed a song like this.

    And on the other side of the door was Olivia, crying as much as I was, looking at me with a mixture of anger and fear, that I could imagine where they were coming from.

    Without saying anything, she just turns and runs to her room, without having the slightest idea of ??how to control the feeling that was probably exploding in her chest at that moment.

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    ------ Olivia''s Pov 5 Minutes Ago ------

    "I''ve become so numb

    Can''t feel the drum

    Worn out and tired

    Much more inspired

    Transforming into this

    All I long to do

    Is be genuinely me

    And less like you..."

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    That chorus of the song... damn, not only did it sound great, I started to understand why I probably didn''t know this song.

    This was done by him, right?

    Haha...

    Since when did my idiot brother have such a talent for music, and probably no one in this house knew?

    But... how did he write this song? He doesn''t even suffer what I suffer in this house.

    Everything he did was always applauded, or at least ignored, me? Everything I did wrong was always criticized until the end.

    Even when I thought I was doing something right, it was like in the end I messed up and in her view I was wrong...

    Wait!

    He wrote this song for me, right?

    If it wasn''t for me, at least he watched me write this... it could only have been that!

    Is he really the only one who understands me in this house?

    But he never did anything to try to help me...

    I didn''t even notice when tears started falling down my face, but I just ignored it and continued listening to this song from behind his bedroom door.

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    "Struggling within shadows where doubt takes flight

    Chasing dreams in someone else''s light..."

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    When I heard this part, the first thing I remembered was the violin performance she forced me to go to when I was younger, even though I didn''t like it, I was too young to understand that she wasn''t doing it for I liked it, but it was to make her dream come true!

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    "Lost in the silence where emotions alight

    Trading truth for lies in this scripted night"

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    Damn Noah... holy shit, how long have you watched me go through this alone and done nothing?!

    Damn, on the one hand I''m glad someone finally noticed this about me, but to write such profound lyrics, he had to have watched me suffer for a long time, right?

    Was he using me as a guinea pig for his music?

    Suddenly, while I was crying and leaning against the door, apparently the door wasn''t locked and it opened...

    Looking at Noah, who was also crying inside the room, a part of me was a little happy, but I was still angry, so I just turned around and ran back to my room, the only place I had a little bit of peace in this house.

    As I ran to my room, I passed my mother, who was carrying some laundry.

    I don''t even know if she saw I was crying, but I tried my best to hide the crying as I ran to my room and locked the door.

    ''Crap!'' I thought irritated.

    I don''t know what''s going on...

    My chest hurts so much...

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