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How Am I Still Alive?

Chapter 1936: 1930 Revenge

Author: Persimmon Whale
updatedAt: 2025-09-22

Chapter 1936: Chapter 1930 Revenge

War itself has no personal grudges.

Or rather, in a race, nation, or plane war that’s too real and brutal, the outcome involves countless lives, and getting entangled with personal grudges on such a battlefield inevitably seems too hollow.

“When you swing your sword on the battlefield for the sake of revenge on a particular individual, in ten minutes you might take ten lives, lives that had no grievances with you before…”

In a sense, Lu Ping’an, the War God, actually does not hide his disdain for war.

As the Master of Life, once a mortal watching his own life slowly fade in despair, he has always detested the massive loss of life without mercy or reason, even under somewhat legitimate and compliant circumstances.

“But in reality, I cannot refuse the massive profits brought by war. The arms supply chain and logistics have always been the largest parts of my business. Ha, in the eyes of many, maybe I am indeed one of the biggest war profiteers of this century. Many conspiracy theories even see me as the mastermind behind instigating wars, and several tabloids are just shy of naming me directly….”

“You didn’t refute those rumors? Or threaten them?”

“Why refute them… aren’t they speaking the truth?”

Lu Ping’an chuckled helplessly. He always thought humans were fascinating creatures; their ideal goals can be contrary to their action plans… Am I not a war profiteer? Just look at this year’s arms sales ratio; it’s a joke that no one can laugh at.

However, this contradiction between actions and goals, on a deeper level, is unified.

“War itself has neither benevolence nor grievances nor even meaning, but the goals of war, and the effects brought by it, cannot be refused… Actively guiding the war to shape the future into what I desire is better than being dragged into war and becoming a victim.”

“That’s a hundred percent war profiteer declaration.”

“So, I didn’t sue those guys for slander.”

Lu, very self-aware, laughed pleasantly.

On the Green Planet, he actively initiated the war, and on Mercury 42, he personally created the Salvation Army, the “source of war.”

“War has its necessity. A war profiteer like me probably does too…”

The self on the Green Planet continues to hide, waiting for the clearout and hanging of the Easterners once they’re noticed, while on Mercury 42, if there were no resistance, perhaps there would indeed be fewer deaths in war, but enslavement and consumption would be endless.

Lu Ping’an has always tried to remain neutral, but the reality is that he can’t.

Faced with certain existences and actions, he feels discontent, displeasure, and might even directly intervene.

“Give hope to the weaker.”

“Give life to the despairing.”

“Give resisters the blade, flame, and… the possibility of dying honorably.”

Plain words—are they willpower, determination? No, they are merely actions along the way and what will be done in the future.

His personal desire might be to give hope to the despairing, the desire to save himself, after all, he never received it back then….

“What else is more despairing than war?”

Faced with the tides of war, with the conflicts of interest between races, personal grudges are meaningless—does begging make sense?

In a sense, Lu Ping’an is also considered a Savior God, except his salvation is more “pragmatic.” He only believes that those who save themselves can be rescued and are more capable of execution.

From a logical perspective, perhaps a savior “arms dealer” willing to lend a hand is more effective than a hundred powerless saviors.

Sometimes, Lu Ping’an enjoys being a “God,” which means his personal preferences can be fused with his principles, allowing his “willfulness” and “unreasonableness” to become the cornerstone of his evolution…

“To put it bluntly, isn’t it just finding a reason for your unprofitable stupid acts?”

“Haha, I don’t deny it either.”

Faced with Big Cat’s questioning, Lu Ping’an did not conceal anything.

In a sense, Lu, who doesn’t care much about his own life, just lives for comfort, but his logic and rationality have always restrained him… Or rather, rationality tells him that only by following the principle of profit prioritization can “capricious salvation” last longer.

“Using war to seek peace… not that noble, although I guided wars, I only offered those resisters weapons and channels to protect themselves.”

“At least, we can’t let life disappear so meaninglessly. ‘Meaning’ might be an overly subjective evaluation, but dying from slaughter seems overwhelmingly pitiful…”

Lu Ping’an closed his eyes, feeling the lament of this land.

Or, rather, the lament of the lives that once thrived on it.

The earth’s veins have been severed, and the dead here can no longer enter the underworld to start a new cycle of reincarnation.

If it were another world, the soul should have entered the stage of dispersal, dust returns to dust, ashes to ashes, and everything ends here.

However, in this world, “consciousness and soul” are hard to dissipate on their own.

They can only stand there hopelessly, looking at their own corpses, at their former homes, at those savage slaughterers, at those who have taken everything that was theirs.

Perhaps, if there’s no external intervention, they will eventually be “digested” or even transformed into the form of slaughterers by the pollution source.

But the intercessor, has arrived.

“Give the dead… the possibility of becoming avengers.”

Do personal grudges hold no meaning in war? Then, as a Deity, I will give it meaning.

The difference between a Deity and a Quasi-God was shown on the battlefield. Lu Ping’an exercised his authority around his Divine Realm.

Life can become “customers” of Lu Ping’an.

So, can the dead… the dead who still cling to their obsessions, also?

“It could have been from the beginning, otherwise how did your Burning Legion come about?”

The barrier between life and death may only need a “nonsense” from Big Cat to be easily pierced.

For the Top Life Series, life and death have always been a state, not a quantifiable term.

“I am the Master of Eternal Life, the supervisor and guardian of Life Value, the compensated redeemer for the despairing…”

The prayers change constantly, yet they continually approach the essence of this Deity.

He is interfering with this reality world with his will, with his words.

“…If you choose to rest in peace, I will grant you eternal slumber.”

“…If you’re unwilling to remain silent, I will offer you the chance of rebirth, and transform you into the Burning Evil Ghost under my command.”

In front of the dead, the fiery Evil Ghost made a promise, but even it doesn’t know how many wills would choose revenge.

But the next moment…

“The whole world… started to burn.”

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