Pax

I am falling, falling, falling.Advertisement

It is black and dark and I can''t see, I can''t think, I can''t feel. But that''s how I like it. If I can''t feel, then nothing hurts. So I keep it that way.

If I wake, I drink myself back to sleep with a Xanax chaser. It isn''t long before I''m in the black again, drifting pointlessly along, sleeping without nightmares.

Only blackness.

I sigh. This is where I belong, where the dark is timeless.

Painless.

The light is painful. The light is where I see her face and know how I failed her.

I''ll stay far away from the light.

Forever.

It isn''t worth it.

I start to close my eyes but realize that they are already closed, so I smile.

This is where I belong.