Chapter 274: Chapter 274: Make an Appointment with a Psychologist

If she hadn’t sought out Xie Yanchuan after her rebirth, would he have avoided death because of her?

Despite this life’s situation being different from the last, she didn’t get engaged to Xie Linchuan, and the Xu Group hadn’t yet been tied to the Xie Group.

Back then, she could have simply refused an alliance with the Xie Family.

But she insisted on finding Xie Yanchuan.

“Xie Yanchuan, should I have never sought you out from the start?” Xu Jinzhi asked again, her voice already tinted with a sob.

Xu Jinzhi didn’t know why, but she suddenly thought of the man she saw yesterday at noon.

That man’s eyes brimmed with terror, as if he was extremely afraid of her.

Tears slipped from her eyes and fell onto the back of Xie Yanchuan’s hand. Xu Jinzhi wondered, did Xie Yanchuan ever regret meeting her?

In actuality, it was a complete contradiction. If Xie Yanchuan regretted it, then why would he still be willing to die for Xu Jinzhi?

But Xu Jinzhi couldn’t help sinking into her own emotions.

Xu Jinzhi suffered from insomnia again.

At one in the morning, still not asleep, she had no choice but to get up.

There was no melatonin in the house, let alone sleeping pills. Xu Jinzhi had no other option but to go downstairs for some alcohol.

Only one servant was still awake in the living room. She glanced over when she heard a noise and then saw Xu Jinzhi coming down the stairs.

The servant couldn’t help frowning because she had an inkling of what Mr. Xu wanted to do.

When Xu Jinzhi came down, the servant greeted her, then asked, “Mr. Xu, why aren’t you resting?”

Xu Jinzhi replied indifferently, “It’s nothing, don’t worry about me.”

Xu Jinzhi walked past the servant, took a bottle of wine from the cabinet, then turned and left.

The servant knew she shouldn’t say anything, but she couldn’t help feeling a pang of pity, “Mr. Xu, it’s late, don’t drink anymore. You should rest early.”

“I can’t sleep. Drinking a bit will help me sleep,” Xu Jinzhi said carelessly as she went up the stairs.

Back in her bedroom, Xu Jinzhi began to drink.

She knew she shouldn’t do this, but she couldn’t help herself. Her heart felt as if it was being gnawed by ants, making her body uncomfortable.

Xu Jinzhi took several big swigs and then choked, coughing bitterly from the discomfort in her throat.

But deep down, she felt slightly relieved at last.

After a while, Xu Jinzhi simply stopped pouring and started drinking directly from the bottle.

She didn’t know how much time had passed before she finally fell into a dull sleep.

But after Xu Jinzhi fell asleep, she had a dream.

In the dream was the man who looked very much like Xie Yanchuan, kneeling before her, pleading desperately.

“I’m sorry, I was wrong! I promise I won’t appear before you again!”

“Please, let me go!”

“I beg you, spare me this time!”

Xu Jinzhi stood above the man, looking down emotionlessly without a trace of softness in her heart.

The man’s cries and pleas continued, but suddenly, they became different.

The man who looked so much like Xie Yanchuan suddenly turned into Xie Yanchuan himself!

They looked so similar, yet Xu Jinzhi could distinguish them instantly.

The man resembling Xie Yanchuan disappeared, replaced by Xie Yanchuan himself.

Xie Yanchuan wouldn’t look at her with the same terror in his eyes as that other man, but at this moment, Xie Yanchuan’s expression was cold and devoid of any emotion.

He looked at her as if he were looking at a stranger. Staring at Xu Jinzhi, he said coldly, “Xu Jinzhi, let me go.”

Xu Jinzhi suddenly opened her eyes wide, staring at the ceiling. Her complexion was pale, tears filled her eyes, her hands clenched involuntarily, and her body wouldn’t stop trembling.

The fear in her eyes seemed like she had been scared by something horrific.

After a very, very long time, realizing it was all just a dream, Xu Jinzhi then curled up on her side, burying herself into the blankets.

Morning came.

Xu Jinzhi went to the company, and her worn-out appearance was evident to everyone.

Assistant Chen of course noticed it, his brow furrowed in concern, wanting to say something, but before he found the right moment, Xu Jinzhi had already spoken.

“Help me make an appointment with a doctor,” Xu Jinzhi said.

Assistant Chen tensed up instantly, “Mr. Xu, …”

“Make an appointment with a psychologist.” Before Assistant Chen could finish, Xu Jinzhi added on.

Xu Jinzhi didn’t know what exactly was wrong with her, but she knew she couldn’t go on like this.

She would die.

Although she indeed harbored the intention of torturing herself, as if wanting to show Xie Yanchuan that his death had not allowed her to live on well.

But Xu Jinzhi also knew clearly that she couldn’t die.

She still had her father and her child.

Even Xie Yanchuan.

Her father already had white hair, her child was still so young, Xie Yanchuan was even lying motionless in bed.

If she died, what would they do?

Assistant Chen was stunned when he heard that Xu Jinzhi was looking for a psychologist, he looked at her for a long time without recovering.

By the time Assistant Chen got over the shock, he realized his eyes were wet.

He hurriedly composed himself, not wanting the other to see his emotions, and hastily said, “Okay.”

Assistant Chen quickly left the office, and Xu Jinzhi continued to immerse herself in her work.

Only by keeping busy could she make herself slightly calmer.

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Soon, Assistant Chen managed to arrange an appointment with a very authoritative psychologist.

Xu Jinzhi took the opportunity during the weekend to go.

The doctor was a young-looking woman. After sitting down, the two made a simple self-introduction.

Han Li told Xu Jinzhi not to be nervous and to think of it as meeting a new friend.

During the first meeting, they didn’t have any profound conversations.

Although Xu Jinzhi knew the other was a psychologist and that it was she who had sought her out, she still couldn’t bring herself to pour out all her inner thoughts.

Han Li simply learned about the events that had happened to Xu Jinzhi and then arranged another appointment.

Xu Jinzhi didn’t know what the process of psychological treatment was like, but when Han Li mentioned meeting again, Xu Jinzhi hesitated.

Was that it?

She didn’t feel like she received any treatment.

Han Li just smiled and told Xu Jinzhi, “Don’t worry, we will talk more tomorrow.”

Xu Jinzhi hesitated for a while, but eventually nodded. Someone unprofessional shouldn’t question a professional.

But just before leaving, Xu Jinzhi stopped and said to Han Li, “I’m suffering from severe insomnia now, shouldn’t you prescribe me some medicine?”