“Mateo, what do you want for dinner tonight, mijo?” my abu asks from her spot near the sink.

    “It’s Cam’s night to choose,” I answer as my middle sister lets out an outraged squawk from where she’s leaning against the counter.

    The objection dies down as fast as it started to build. I go back to screwing new bulbs into the canned lighting in our kitchen—just one of the long list of chores I’ve been too busy to get to over thest couple of months. But since I’m currently trying not to think about the fact that it’s been three days since Vivian gave Sloane my number and she still hasn’t texted, I’m determined to keep my downtime to a minimum.

    Also, they have to get done, and with the season starting and my work at the foundation kicking up again, this is the only time I’ve got to do them.

    “Yes, well, she yields her choice to you,” abu Ximena retorts.

    “I absolutely do not!” Cam protests with a flip of her short, dark hair. “I’ve been dreaming of tonight’s meal all week. I wanted—”

    “Pollo en Chile Colorado,” we all finish at the same time, because it’s what she always asks for.

    Now she just looks insulted. “Just because I’ve asked for that thest couple of times I’ve gotten to choose—”

    “Thest ten times,” my abu corrects. “And I’m fresh out of whole chickens. So unless you want to go wring Mr. Darcy’s neck, your choice gets bumped ’til next Wednesday.”

    “I could choose something else, you know.”

    “Then moan andin until it’s your turn again because you had to settle?” abu Ximena shoots back. “No, thank you.”

    Cam rolls her dark-brown eyes before looking up at me. “I’m not that predictable, am I, Sly?”

    Because I know and mine when I see one, I keep my mouth shut as I finish changing thest light bulb. Except to say, “If chicken is off the table, how about carne guisada?”

    The vorful Mexican stewed beef is Cam’s second favorite meal.

    “That, I can do,” my abu replies, even as she shoots me an exasperated look that tells me she knows exactly what I’m up to. Nearly twenty years of being the only guy in this family has taught me what’s worth fighting for…and what definitely isn’t. My favorite enchdas can wait.

    “What’s next?” I ask as I climb down thedder.

    “Mariana’s showerhead needs recing. The new one is in the cab under the sink.”

    “On it,” I tell her as I fold up thedder. “What time’s she going to be home, anyway?”

    “I’m picking her up from track practice at five.” Cam plucks a grape from the bowl on the counter and pops it in her mouth. “Though I don’t know why she just won’t learn to drive like every other seventeen-year-old around here.”

    “You know Mariana,” abu Ximena says as she pulls a bunch of tomatoes out of the fridge. “She does everything in her own time.” She shoots me a look. “Like some other people I know.”

    “I sent the flowers,” I tell her. “She never responded, though I know she’s got my number. I’m not about to badger the woman.”

    “Woman?” Cam asks, eyes wide. “Flowers? What did I miss?”

    “Nothing,” I tell her.

    “Mateo’s got a little crush,” abu Ximena answers at the same time.

    “They were thank you flowers,” I interject.

    Cam, who is about to start herst year at the University of Texas, looks almost giddy as she skips right over my exnation. “There’s a woman who hasn’t immediately fallen at Sly’s feet? Who is this mystical, magical creature, and when can I meet her?”

    “Did you miss the part about her not responding to the flowers?” I ask as I grab my abu’s toolbox. I do my best to ignore the giant sticker of a ck widow that now graces the top of it.

    “How could I miss my favorite part?” she counters. “So, does she think you smell like gym socks or what? Because she’d be right.”

    “Yes, that’s it exactly.” I head for the stairs. “I’m too smelly for her.”

    “No, seriously. Why did she turn you down?”

    “He didn’t say she turned him down. He said she didn’t respond,” abu Ximena tells her. “It’s not the same thing.”

    “Feels like the same thing,” I mutter as I climb the steps to the third-floor bathroom. Not that it matters. The flowers really were a thank-you. Nothing more. It’s the request for the phone number that made me think she might actually get in touch.

    But it’s probably for the best she hasn’t reached out. I don’t have time for anything resembling a rtionship right now, and neither does she. The sheer amount of San Diego Lightning game tape I’ve watched this week is proof positive of that.

    So what if I can’t get her sharp eyes and fuck-off attitude out of my head? She’s like thunder—close enough to rattle me but impossible to reach.

    “She probably didn’t see them,” my abu shouts after me, echoing the excuse I gave her in the car.

    Thest thing I hear before deliberately closeting myself away is Cam asking, “How can someone not notice when she’s getting flowers?”

    No way do I want to hear my sister’s reaction when she finds out who I sent flowers to. Twice.

    Originally, I had the same thought as my abu. Maybe Sloane didn’t get them, or maybe they blended in with the rest of the flowers she probably gets on a daily basis. But it’s hard to imagine that both bouquets I sent, one to her hotel and one to the venue, went unnoticed. Especially considering the size of them.

    Which means Sloane isn’t interested. And that’s fine. A woman has the right to spend time with whomever she wants, whenever she wants. And a man has a responsibility to take no—or noment—for an answer. Especially when that man knows her disinterest is the best thing for both of them.

    That doesn’t stop me from thinking about her, though. And listening to her music, which has been one hell of a ride in and of itself. Her earlier stuff is light and fun, but the albums grow darker and more intense over time.

    The transformation is painful to hear. There’s no denying that she’s built upon every trauma she’s survived, unlocking newyers of art and talent and power from her pain. Still, I wish she didn’t have to. I wonder what kind of music Sloane would make if she felt safe again.

    Herst album is devastating, but it just might be the best thing I’ve ever listened to. I don’t know why I waited so long to do it.

    I put it on shuffle as I get to work unscrewing my baby sister’s calcified showerhead. “Firelight”es on. It was the first song she sang at the concertst weekend, and I can’t help remembering her face as they lowered her to the center of the stage.

    She looked like a dark goddess, a sorceress prepared to vanquish anyone who dared oppose her. But even then, in her fuck-me-up boots and bow-down-to-me dress, there was a disconnect. A bunch of tiny details that didn’t quite add up to the image she was trying so hard to project.

    Two hourster, I’ve installed the showerhead, changed more light bulbs, patched a hole in theundry room wall, fixed a broken drawer, and have finally moved on to thest item on my abu’s list: reinforcing the closet rod in Mariana’s bedroom, because apparently it keeps falling down under the weight of all her clothes.

    I’m putting in thest screw when my baby sister strolls in wearing a shit-eating grin that makes me instantly wary.

    “Sloane Walker, huh?” Mariana asks, throwing herself across the bed.

    “Don’t start.” I swipe the music off.

    “Hey, I love that song,” sheins.

    “Then stream it on your own phone.” The second the wordse out of my mouth, I know I shouldn’t have said them.

    Sure enough, it takes about ten seconds before “Hopeless” starts ring all over again.

    “She’s got a great set of pipes, I’ll give you that,” shements as Sloane’s husky voice hits a high note. “And she’s gorgeous. But do you really think you can handle all that?”

    “I have no doubt the stories about her have been highly exaggerated.” I dump the drill back in the toolbox. “And I’m not talking about this with you.”

    “I’m sure that’s what all the guys think.”

    “About talking to you? I’m sure it is.” I hightail it out of her bedroom, but in true brat style, she just follows me.

    “Cute,” she tells me with fake cheer. “But I was talking about Sloane, and you know it. I can’t believe you sent the ck Widow flowers. Did you actually think that would work?”

    I don’t know what I thought, except that I wanted to talk to her again. Whether or not I should want that is something I don’t n on getting into with anybody, especially not my kid sister. “Which part of ‘I’m not talking about this with you’ do you not understand?”

    “The ‘not talking about it.’ Obviously.” She grins at me before taking the stairs down to the kitchen two at a time. “I can’t believe you have a crush on Sloane Walker.”

    “And I can’t believe you went on a date with Vikram Chakravarti,” I retort as I follow right behind her. “The kid flunked out of home ec.”

    “I already told you, he did it on purpose. They were using non-vegan butter,” she huffs. “I like that he’s a man of principle. And, just so you know, we’re going out again this weekend.”

    “What? I thought you had theater every night this weekend.” I frown at Cam, who is currently helping make a sd for dinner. “Howe this is the first I’m hearing about this?”

    “Probably for the same reason you don’t tell us about asking out international pop stars,” Mariana taunts. “And not all dates happen at night. He’s taking me to breakfast, thank you very much.”

    “Wash your hands and set the table,” abu Ximena tells me. “And you get drinks for everyone, Mariana. Lucia will be here any minute, and she says she’s bringing someone special with her.”

    I stiffen at the news that my oldest sister is dating again. “Who?”

    “His name is Mason,” abu Ximena answers evenly. “And you’ll be nice to him.”

    I’m not so sure about that. I was nice to Grant and— I cut the thought off before it can finish forming. Going there isn’t exactly good for my mental health.

    “Do we like him?” I ask as I cross to the sink. I’d be lying if I said I was okay with my younger sisters suddenly dating people I don’t know and haven’t had the chance to check out. Then again, I’ve made mistakes even when I did vet them, so what do I know?

    The pain I try so hard to bury starts bubbling deep inside of me at the thought of what Lucia went through thest time.

    “I like him,” abu Ximena volunteers, shooting me a don’t start look.

    “Yeah, well, you also like Sloane Walker,” Mariana answers with a bat of her chocte brown eyes. “So your taste is questionable. Also, I don’t see why we always have to wait for Lucia.”

    “We were waiting for you, too,” my abu fires back. “You did just get home from practice, if you remember.”

    “Whatever.” Mariana ps me on the back on her way to the drink fridge in the garage. “I can’t believe you sent flowers. A woman like that will never fall for flowers. She must get half a dozen bouquets a day.”

    “Still not talking about this with you,” I tell her as I dry my hands and reach into the top cab for our good tes. My abu has insisted we use them for Wednesday dinners ever since I got drafted by the Twisters and moved back to the area.

    We don’t get together on the weekends during the season for obvious reasons, but Wednesday nights are sacred. And sacred asions, no matter how regrly they ur, deserve the dishes with the little pink flowers on them.

    “How about talking to me about it?” abu Ximena says as she starts cooking the tortis on heral. “If the flowers didn’t work, have you thought about sending her something else?”

    “I’m not exactly sure what you want me to do here,” I reply, nodding my thanks to Mariana when she hands me a Topo Chico from the garage. “I’m not in the habit of hounding women to go out with me.”

    “Obviously,” she tells me with an eyeroll so exaggerated it reminds me where all my sisters got it. “They usually toss themselves at your feet. You’re just put off because she hasn’t.”

    “That’s not true.” I’m put off, if that’s what she wants to call it, because I hate the idea that she’s struggling. I know what it’s like to feel like you’re drowning, and I don’t want to be one of the things that pulls her under. “But I’m not going to harass her to talk to me, either. That’s not cool.”

    “This isn’t about harassing her.” She looks over her shoulder at me even as she flips the torti with her fingers. “It’s about the fact that you have to make sure you get her attention. If she tells you no, then yes, let it go. But she hasn’t said no.”

    I nce at the door. Lucia and her guy can’t get here soon enough. “Or I could just ept that she isn’t interested, abu. That is the gentlemanly thing to do.” Even if it does stick in my craw—partly because I really don’t know if she ever got the flowers and partly because I can’t get her or her indomitable energy out of my mind.

    If I knew for sure she’d gotten the flowers, I could just move on. It’s the not knowing that keeps me up at night, staring at the ceiling and wondering if she’s awake, too.

    “I don’t see the harm in trying one more time,” my abu tells me as she plops thest torti onto the cast iron.

    I lean against the counter next to the stove. I may have given up my enchdas, but there’s no way I’m letting one of my sisters grab the baby torti.

    “Actually, I don’t, either.” Cam looks up from where she’s mincingtro for abu Ximena’s signature vinaigrette. “When Jessica was interested in moving from friends to more, it took a little time for me to catch on. And it wasn’t flowers that won me over.”

    “What did?” I ask, half dreading the answer. There are some things a guy doesn’t need to know about his sister, after all.

    “Cake,” she smiles, eyes unfocused as if lost in a memory.

    “Cake?” I repeat, doubtful. “Is there a fall-in-love-with-me vor that I don’t know about?”

    “It wasn’t the vor. I mean, it was, but not like that.” She sighs happily. “We were all talking about this bakery near my apartment at school one day. I said I wanted to try their strawberry cake, but they were always closed when I got back from studying.”

    “And she made it happen for you.” Now that’s something I can get behind, especially in the person dating my sister. “Unfortunately, I don’t know what I can make happen for Sloane that the people around her can’t do better.”

    “Then it has to be something she wouldn’t think to ask for herself,” Cam says like it’s the simplest thing in the world.

    Which it could be, except: “Obviously we’re not part of the same friend group.”

    “No, but you do have me,” my abu interjects, handing me the baby torti dripping with butter, because she knows exactly why I’ve taken root right next to the stove.

    Mariana tries to snatch it away—it’s everyone’s favorite, not just mine—but I take a huge bite before she can reach it.

    In the meantime, abu Ximena gives me a sneaky grin that both terrifies and pulls me in at the same time. “If we put our heads together, I’m pretty sure we’ll be able to figure out something Sloane can’t miss.”

    I hope so. Because this is my hail mary pass, and I don’t want to overshoot.