Chapter 93

    MEI TREVOR

    "… I''m not sleeping in the same bed with you!"

    ''Wow''

    It has been hours since I''ve been arguing with Donna. She''s like a solid rock in her stance.

    ''Darnit''

    "And what do you suggest?" I shouted back.

    "Should I sleep on the cold floor?"

    "… and what''s with this resort?"

    "They don''t even have extra mattress!"

    I could hear Donna sneered at me at that.

    "And why are you complaining to me?"

    "Do I own the place?"

    ''Gosh''

    She''s really pissing me off.

    "Wether you like it or not, we are sleeping together!"

    And I made Donna''s eyes round with that. I know I constructed my sentence wrongly but I won''t retract it anyway.

    ''Hahaha''

    "In your dreams!"

    She eyed me right there while hugging herself as though I''m going to ravish her.

    ''Wow''

    "Huh, what''s this?" I smirked.

    "Huh…"

    "This is what most straight girls'' problem is…"

    "You automatically think WE WANT YOU."

    "Goodness, we have taste for goddam sake!"

    And with that, I know I hit a nerve.

    It''s not like Donna isn''t beautiful but I''m not admitting that in her face.

    ''Bleh''

    She snickered at me and I could tell she''s fuming in anger.

    "Huh, just right back at you, you SHRIMP!"

    And that … hit a nerve on me.

    I surveyed my body from my toes to my busted breasts.

    "Me?"

    "A SHRIMP?"

    I can''t possibly accept that.

    Just as much as my body is to drool for, my face is to die for.

    ''Goodness''

    "And you… BIPOLAR!" I snapped back.

    And that enraged Donna even more. Her chest was rising and falling in anger.

    ''Hahaha''

    And I''m enjoying that.

    "What did you just say?"

    "BIPOLAR."

    I reached out a pillow and took a step backwards towards the door.

    I could already feel the change in Donna''s energy, going darker.

    ''Hahaha''

    But I''m not scared. I just felt like running away.

    "BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR…"

    "BIPOLAR!..." I shouted again before finally getting out the door.

    [*******]

    So here, I ended up in Erika and Andy''s room.

    As much as I regretted barging in, I can''t really undo it anymore.

    I was really sorry.

    ''And readers, forgive me, okay?''

    So I was lying in bed with the both of them cuddling at my side.

    ''Damn''

    I did not gave a thought before coming over in their room. I was so occupied of pissing off Donna and wanting to get some sleep that I forgot the state of my heart when it comes to Andy.

    And of all time, sleep did betray me.

    So I was wide awake, staring at the ceiling with the two love birds at my side.

    ''funny''

    But it wasn''t that bad after all.

    I have this feeling of fear before, that I avoided meeting Andy if possible.

    A lot of Erika''s invitations were bluntly rejected by me in the past months so as not to ignite the fire I have been quenching.

    I was scared that if I meet Andy even once, my buried feelings would come alive.

    So it took my all when I accepted Erika''s plea of getting everyone together for a drink one night.

    And again, everything wasn''t really bad as I thought it would be.

    Surprisingly, it didn''t hurt anymore.

    Yeah, I''m not hurt anymore.

    Was it just INFATUATION?

    No…

    I know for myself that it was LOVE and it''s real.

    You know it''s real when it hurts.

    And it seriously hurts at that time that it made me devastated for a couple of months.

    And now…

    Guess this is what it felt like of someone who has moved on.

    I know now that it''s over.

    Well, it never really began but in my heart I know it did.

    And now it''s over.

    So I guess this is ''closure''.

    Moving on isn''t easy. I''d been sad, angry, devastated but with all my might I continued to live my life without Andy and tried to erase even the thought of her.

    It was hard but then... time really heals all wound.

    And here I am now, I just woke up one day… not loving Andy anymore, that way.