Telling the truth and making someone cry is better than telling a lie and making someone smile. Paulo Coelho

    Before Luna could speak, Louie interrupted her. "Luna, I''m sorry it didn''t work out between us. I''m sorry I pushed you away. But after knowing that I have finally learned that you are the one I love, all these feelings I have in you, I regretted it. I am devastated, especially when the news broke up to us that you die at the train station gang war. I''m sorry for ending before we have even begun. I''m a terrible person….a very terrible husband and a very terrible father. I wish I could make it up to and most especially to the kids.  Maybe it''s self-sabotage, maybe it''s fear, maybe it''s a little of both. Especially that I had begun to have doubts in my life from the very first time that I''ve touched you. The moment I hurt you both physically, mentally, and emotionally. I am so sorry if I had hurt you so badly. I am sorry if I had broken your soul, and fragile heart, for causing all the pain, and even the physical pain has already left a painful memory. I had these inner demons that always wrestle in my mind which come slowly creeping back to me every time I am with you. I had these feelings that I didn''t want to let go of as it is whispered in my heart.  ??

    Luna the day I got the news about your demise, I can''t accept it nor believed it. I always said to myself that if ever you had been in that situation a hospital or someone will still call me so that I can help you. I always took a glance over at my phone and exhaled loudly, wishing and hoping that someone will give me a ring and will bring me a piece of news that you are still alive. I have waited for days and weeks, and even months. As I felt some desperation all I wanted to do was pick it up and call you, but I knew I shouldn''t since I had already broken your wings and I am very ashamed of the things that I have done to you. Maybe it''s my guilt that is eating me that time. No, I couldn''t and I asked and hire so many detectives to look for you, Yuan, Ethan, and Kim know about it.

    Luna, you stayed in my thoughts constantly, and I couldn''t shake that, no matter how hard I tried... I always dreamed of you, I know Sofia knew about this, but she kept her mouth shut for your name has become taboo at Villa 7. Now I know that there was such distance between us, I just felt shackled as my heart battled my head and heart." Louie utters all the words that he kept in his heart and mind from the moment Autumn were introduced as Luna and she is his ex-wife.

    Louie smiled at her as he stared at Luna''s eyes very intently. Then suddenly the music changed, the song First Love Never Dies by Boyfriends is being played, (youtube.com/watch?v=lGYycvbcRYo). Louie needs to take this opportunity to make up to Luna. The moment Autumn was introduced to her real identity, he was very delighted, he wants to ask the question "How have you been for these past years? What were you doing? Were you happy? Did you miss me or think about me? Do you still LOVE ME LUNA?" The question that he can''t ask her, he can already tell that his Luna has already moved on. And she only treats him as his acquaintance or a friend.

    Louie also knew that things that he should bear in mind are that he shouldn''t think about it anymore, since there is already a man who could protect and love his Luna a hundred times greater than he could do. But he couldn''t stop even if he tried. Luna will always be a part of him and will always be in his heart, body, and soul and the wickedest scenario that he could imagine is that Luna will stay as a shadow of his past present, and even the future they  had children. The worst part about being apart from someone you love isn''t the distance, it''s the silence. That''s when the emotions are the strongest, the heart bleeds the deepest and the demons scream the loudest.

    "I knew I shouldn''t divorce, you nor let me do those hurtful things, I missed you so much Luna, I missed you that even I had s.e.x with Sofia, it is you that I imagined doing the deed with her, for deep down, parts of me longed to hear your voice, to smell your scent and even the touch of your body. It had been some time since I''d spoken like this, and honestly, I don''t even know what I''d say right at this moment. When I received your letter this morning, I know I need to speak to you my unspoken words. The endless questions crossed my mind and regardless of what I was doing, they just seemed to linger on how I can win you back. But still, a flash of memory comes to my mind when I saw your video of getting married to the Viscount. I was the one person who was always in control of my feelings. And yet, I couldn''t stop loving you, no matter how much I wanted to. I guess there are just some people that come into your life and make their mark on your heart and there''s just nothing you can do. And you were one of those people for me, you have already marked me, Luna," Louie added. A single deserted tear rolled down into Louie''s cheek, capturing all the emotions, heartache, and love into that one drop of feeling, his feelings for Luna.

    As the two glides and sway to the music Luna remained silent as she listened to Louie''s words. She knew that his confessions were his unspoken words from the moment she divorces him up to the moment that she was introduced as Luna from being Autumn that he knew. She also knew that the two songs were especially for her, but still, she can''t feel anything anymore. "I have already and finally moved on in my life. I am not affected anymore by his touch and even the song and his words can''t give butterflies in my stomach" Luna said to herself.

    As the song finished, Louie and Luna stop dancing at the very center. "Luna,  "I know I couldn''t change what happened in the past and had no idea what lies in the future to hold, but I had to stop standing still and fixating on what I didn''t need to stop hoping you''ll come back. I know it wasn''t healthy anymore, it didn''t make me happy and contented and it wasn''t doing me any good, and also neither to you too. I always forced a weak smile every time I see you smiling lovely in front and beside Viscount Francois, Sometimes… No, I always wiped away the tears and turned around to go back in my walled heart since I can''t accept the fact that I can''t have you and win you again. I tried to tell myself that what''s meant to be will always find a way and that was my only comfort in those moments of angst. It would have to be enough for me, for now.  I''d do my best to stop looking back, stop wondering and focus on the blessings in my life, and that is our children Luna. And the gift of friendship that you have accepted. Though I knew my thoughts would still drift off to you sometimes... I would never truly stop loving you. But I''m closing that chapter, and now and beginning anew. Our relationship as friends.  It''ll take some time, some self-love, and some hard days, but I''ll make it through. I always do, I''ve been there for the past five years when you are not with me. As I clench my fists and making up my mind this time, with a heavy heart but still I can earn a smile from you and the close relationship that is warming up between me and the twins is enough. Now, more than ever, I can''t ask anymore and I know I got this." Louie elaborated more on his answers to Luna''s letter or much more to say is that, his unspoken words towards his precious Luna.

    Luna smiled at Louie. "Thank you, Louie, thank you for accepting what our relationship has turned to. I know you will still meet someone to be your lifetime partner and it is for keeps. Don''t close the doors and windows of your heart, Sofia may be brought you some nightmares, but is it a lesson for you to learn and an experience that will make you stronger than ever. Our friendship was bonded with our children and I know and I can see how precious you are to Dawn. Louie, you will always play a special part in my life and Francois knows it. He didn''t want you to feel that you are an outcast, especially to our children. Winter may be as stubborn just like you, but in the near future, you two mat get along. Maybe not this time, but let''s just wait," says Luna.

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