She was on the verge of breaking. Her memories were contrasting with each other. How could she be fine?

    "I know it''s hard..." Lu Xingyan reached out, placing her hand on top of Shi Enxi''s.

    "Do you?" She wanted to cry but she had enough self-control not to. She had shed enough tears and she was not someone who could just cry in front of someone.

    "Yes. Being confused with two memories, two lives. You don''t know how to live in it or how to face the people you''ve wronged." The rest of what she said was based on what she has read but being confused with two memories was something she knew. It was only normal for Shi Enxi to feel that way. She would have easily cope up with it if she woke up and lived in another body and another period but that wasn''t the case. She was the Shi Enxi of the past with the memories of Shi Enxi of the present. Even someone like her would be frightened, disturbed, and don''t know what to do in this new life especially when she has already accepted her cruel, bad end.

    Shi Enxi was staring at her for a while, scrutinizing her. It was not easy to trust someone for her so she was still a bit hesitant on whether or not to trust Lu Xingyan. But the words she said were what exactly she was feeling. It was not easy living with two memories. She felt like she has been played cruelly by fate. This was not a blessing, this was torture for her. Every time she saw someone she wronged in the past, she couldn''t stop thinking of what she did to them. She was the vile woman in their story. How should she apologize to people who didn''t even know what she did? She ruined their lives! She would have ruined their lives again if not for Lu Mello.

    "I need time." She whispered. She needed time and yet here she was, only making things worse for herself. Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click a href="#''t-i-just-remain-dead_49188635433558607"#''t-i-just-remain-dead_49188635433558607/a for visiting.

    "If you need someone to talk with, I''ll listen." Lu Xingyan stroked the back of her hand with her thumb.

    Knowing that there was someone she could rely on when it came to things other people didn''t understand was a relief for Shi Enxi.

    They shortly arrived at the hotel and Lu Xingyan accompanied her sister-in-law in the living room.

    "How did you know?" Shi Enxi wondered. "Did it happen to you too? Did you die and remembered your past life?"

    "No, it wasn''t me who died." Lu Xingyan replied. "It was someone else, my fiance, Han Xukun."

    Shi Enxi furrowed her brows in confusion, "Then how?"

    "I''m still not sure about what answer to give..." She paused. "He didn''t have memories of what happened only I did." But before he died, she remembered having dreams, as if those dreams were a premonition of what was about to happen. "One thing is for sure. If life is brought back from the past, another life is taken from the present." At least that was what she learned while researching the Lu family''s past.

    Shi Enxi was still confused. A topic like this was not easy to understand, especially when things were still disturbing her.

    When Lu Xingyan saw the perplexed look on Shi Enxi''s face, she inwardly sighed. Should she tell her about her family? If she did then she would end up finding out that her brother was the same. It was not her story to tell. It was better if her brother could tell it to his wife instead of now that both of them have memories of the past.

    "If life is brought back from the past, a life is taken from the present. Your past self was brought here after you died in this life." Lu Xingyan tried to explain.

    "Why?"

    "From what I''ve read, it''s because you''re supposed not to die in this life and yet you did. Your time here, your candle of life has not melted completely."

    It was still confusing but somehow, Shi Enxi was able to slowly understand it. "I''m supposed to die three months from now by jumping off a cliff but I died earlier in this life so my past self was brought here to complete my lifeline."

    "And also because you''re connected to my brother." Lu Xingyan badly wanted to say that but she didn''t. It would only make Shi Enxi wonder. Women who were connected to the men of the Lu family would either have another chance if they died earlier than the day that they were supposed to disappear. She wanted to use her parents as an example to explain things further but it was secret. She couldn''t let Shi Enxi know about it or else she would connect it to her brother which might make things worse for their relationship. Lu Xingyan was trying to avoid that that''s why she could only nod and agree to what the other woman said even if it was only a small part of the truth.

    She sighed heavily and caught her head with her hands. Things were still confusing for her. Too complicated. Shi Enxi was still having a hard time to digest something impossible. The only good thing right now was that she has finally had someone to talk with when it came to matters like these.

    On the other hand, Lu Xingyan didn''t give her more information anymore, she knew that her sister-in-law needed time to process things.

    "Can''t I just remain dead? Why did this have to happen to me?" It would be better if she remained dead. She didn''t have to worry about anything. At least that was what she thought. She couldn''t understand why it has to be her? Among all the people in the world, why a woman like her was given another chance to live? There were other people who deserved something like this, not her. Why can''t it be her brother? Or Huang Li? Or even Lu Mello? Why did it have to be her?