I AM BACK!!!

    (Not a chapter, you can skip if you don''t care.????)

    Where was I? Hmm… having a mental breakdown.

    Why? Because I was getting white/gray hair and went to the doctor, he told me that I had a tumor in my brain when he looked at the X-Ray. I stressed for a whole day and didn''t sleep, told my brother that I could very possibly die, and prepared everything in case of that.

    Still I was a little paranoid so I went to another doctor and he said that I don''t have anything and it''s only Marie Antoinette Syndrome. Nothing too big… went to a couple more doctors after that and they said that I was okay and had no brain tumor. I cried like a little bitch at that, I was so f.u.c.k.i.n.g happy.

    When my mother died I honestly thought that I wouldn''t mind dying after I piled up enough money for my brother and had him grow right into an a.d.u.l.t and happy.

    But… nah, this incident taught me that even though I thought that I was okay with dying… Death is scary, especially at such a young age, I have done nothing with my life. I am nowhere where I wanted to be. I had big ambitions, I gave them up, but honestly, since I will die anyway then I better make a name for myself.

    Anyway, at the end of it, I have left the well paying job at my company. I don''t wanna stay looking at my back constantly, I will chill out for a bit to relax from this stressing time.

    P.S: I sued the first doctor and won the case. The doctor didn''t seem like a bad guy, but he f.u.c.k.i.e.d me so bad, I have never felt so weak. Having to tell my little brother that I might die was horrifying, even worse than death.

    So anyway, what a stressful month, damn, these months haven''t been treating me good.???? Sheesh, at least now I think that my life is way more precious than I gave myself credit for.