CHAPTER 383: CHAPTER 382: STILL CAN’T LET GO

"Yes. From today on, Gu Xiaoqing will no longer be around. She’s already on the plane back to Shanghai. You should stop thinking about her. I’m by your side, I’ll take good care of you. Isn’t this enough?"

Jiang Limin couldn’t accept such a cold Fang Shaohan.

Fang Shaohan sneered, pushing away Jiang Limin’s arm that reached out to hold his palm, and said, "I’m not interested in you. There’s only a brotherly and sisterly bond. You’d better leave, lest I say or do something excessive, which wouldn’t be good for you."

Fang Shaohan was trying hard to suppress the anger in his heart. He didn’t want to hurt innocent people.

This was a matter between him and Gu Xiaoqing. Before seeing Gu Xiaoqing, he was not prepared to unilaterally believe anyone’s words.

But he also wouldn’t let Jiang Limin stay by his side like this.

"Brother Fang, why are you so stubborn? Who is Gu Xiaoqing anyway? Just an unremarkable university student. And I’m a foreign student. I have both the education and the looks. We grew up together; why do you insist on thinking about Gu Xiaoqing? What’s so good about her?"

Jiang Limin was not convinced; this was her true thought.

If she didn’t say it, she wouldn’t die in peace.

Fang Shaohan pushed Jiang Limin away, saying, "Xiao Min, I’ve said enough. Love is not a competition of winning or losing. It’s about seeing the one you love, the one you like, and feeling joy, wanting to be happy, unable to suppress the emotions in your heart.

It’s about feeling satisfied just by looking at the other person, just a smile or a gesture, and you feel an urge to die for her willingly.

It has nothing to do with any external conditions, not anything that can be compared for profit. You don’t understand. What you think of as love for me is merely a habit, from childhood, everyone has been saying you and I are a pair, so you also think so.

It’s just a habit. In fact, you should look at other guys outside. Maybe then you’ll discover that I’m no different, perhaps not even as good as those boys who admire you."

Fang Shaohan didn’t want to say anything more. He had said enough. If Jiang Limin remained obstinate, he had no way of helping.

Jiang Limin looked dazedly at this familiar yet unfamiliar Fang Shaohan in front of her. Her heart was in pain; the man she had loved for so many years said it was just a habit.

Is Gu Xiaoqing really that enchanting?

Jiang Limin thought bitterly. So, if Gu Xiaoqing didn’t exist, could you finally see me? Would there be a place for me in your heart?

Gu Xiaoqing, you shouldn’t exist.

Jiang Limin thought maliciously.

Seeing the contorted face of Jiang Limin, Fang Shaohan suddenly felt he might have done something wrong.

"Xiao Min, go back. I don’t need you. Really. Don’t live without dignity." This was the harshest thing Fang Shaohan had ever said.

Jiang Limin twisted and ran out of the ward, her mind a chaotic blur.

Originally, she thought that without Gu Xiaoqing, it would all be logical, and she could be with Fang Shaohan. But things always seem to go astray unintentionally.

Jiang Limin quickly started the car, wiped the tears off her face, and whispered to the air, "Gu Xiaoqing, Fang Shaohan, just wait. I won’t give up. No one can take what’s mine from me. No one."

The car disappeared into the distance.

Gu Xiaoqing was sitting on the plane to Shanghai, absent-mindedly flipping through the magazine beside her, her eyes never actually falling on the pages.

Her mind kept thinking about Fang Shaohan’s current breakfast time, wondering if Jiang Limin knew to pick up his clothes from the laundry room since he always changes into fresh ones for the afternoon rehab.

And whether he ate on time, considering lunch should be more nutritious since Fang Shaohan was doing many things relying entirely on his own strength and needed plenty of nutrients.

With a snap, Gu Xiaoqing closed the magazine, slightly annoyed.

The annoyance was directed at herself.

Obviously, she decided to leave; it was she who didn’t want Fang Shaohan’s affection, she who was afraid of getting hurt. Since she made the decision, why still so wishy-washy, why still care about him?

Perhaps at this moment, Fang Shaohan was enjoying the care of a beauty, completely blissful, forgetting everything.

While she alone acted like a fool, thinking about him like this.

What’s the point?

You wanted to give up. Clearly, you had a chance to abandon the family background match, yet you didn’t want this love. So why are you now in such a tangled mess?

It’s your choice; why be so wishy-washy?

Gu Xiaoqing closed her eyes, leaning her head against the seat, accepting the roaring of the plane.

Her heart still felt a faint bitterness.

The feeling that her precious had been taken away was intensely strong.

This wasn’t something a few harsh words at herself could dissipate.

Sigh.

Still couldn’t let go.

Still invested too much emotion.

She knew that after this time, she could never go back to the past, never find that original Gu Xiaoqing’s heart, but she still did it.

Knowing it would be heartbreaking, but isn’t this her own choice?

The plane landed at the airport, and Gu Xiaoqing finally calmed down.

Walking out of the airport, it was drizzling outside. Even though it was already winter, it couldn’t stop the rainy season in Shanghai.

Gu Xiaoqing pulled up her collar, blocking out a bit of chill, unsure whether it was from her heart or her body.

In the distance, someone stood by the door of a Mazda, waving at Gu Xiaoqing.

It was Guo Donghua.

The two got into the car.

Guo Donghua smoothly started the car, turned his head to take a good look at Gu Xiaoqing, pursing his lips, "Look at you, shriveled up like a ghost. Are you there to take care of the patient, or did you get sick yourself?" He scrutinized the indeed startlingly thin Gu Xiaoqing with disdain.

"What kind of look is that? I’m just a bit thinner, really, such disdain? Are you jealous, perhaps?"

Gu Xiaoqing wouldn’t miss the chance to jab at Guo Donghua. This guy had been talking about losing weight, and now he looked like he had seen a ghost.

"Would I be jealous of you? Really? You look terrible, like you’re about to collapse anytime. I think you need a break. Going on like this, you might just get yourself sick when you come back."

Guo Donghua genuinely worried.

Gu Xiaoqing smiled and nodded, surprised at having such a good friend.

The two were truly a case of fighting before becoming friends.