CHAPTER 135: LET’S GO, SERA!

Seraphina’s POV

I was petrified to go home, but since I had decided to go through everything in my life to get back what belonged to me, I wouldn’t back down just because of some injuries!

I had been through more than enough to be scared of these little wounds!

No one would scare me!

"Let’s go, Sera," Asher said as he held my hand, nudging Lucien aside. "I will take care of you!"

"Hm," I nodded, then glanced at Lucien.

For some reason, seeing him all down and not being able to speak up... I felt pained as I didn’t know how to tell him that he was really important to me!

"Asher!"

I was still staring at Lucien when Alistair’s voice broke through, pulling me back from my trance.

"Let our sister talk to Lucien first," he said calmly but firmly, motioning for Asher to step out with him.

But Asher didn’t budge. His shoulders stiffened as his eyes turned sharp.

"Are you out of your mind?" he yelled, glaring at Alistair. "You want me to leave my sister with someone who’s clearly eyeing her like that?"

’What’s wrong with you!’ I almost rebuked and asked him, but I held myself back.

I knew Asher was trying to protect me, but it was way too much!

I didn’t need protection here!

It felt like he didn’t trust me, as if I were some helpless thing that needed guarding.

And what made me madder was that he talked about Lucien like he was someone who didn’t deserve any respect!

I clenched my jaw, swallowed the heat rising in my chest. I didn’t want to fight him at the moment, as I had gone through so much to act all fragile and let Asher choose me voluntarily.

So I bit my tongue and stayed quiet.

But my eyes landed on Lucien again. Because no matter what Asher thought... Lucien had become such an important person to me that... No matter what... I wouldn’t let anyone put him down.

In the middle of all the noise, I felt a gaze settle on me.

I turned, and my eyes met Alistair’s.

He didn’t say anything and was just looking at me, like he already knew what I needed, and as if he saw straight through my inner thoughts without me knowing.

Then, without a word, he grabbed Asher’s arm and pulled him out of the room.

He didn’t give Asher a chance to protest or any choice.

Emma and the others followed, one by one, until it was just me and Lucien... leaving us alone in the silence.

"Lu... Lucien," I muttered. "Can... you look at me please!?"

"What is it?" He asked without even looking at me.

"Look at me!" I repeated, but this time in a firm tone, leaving no room for negotiation, but it seemed it didn’t work on the man in front of me.

I inhaled deeply and then exhaled at the action of Lucien.

It really bothered me that Lucien was with his ex!

It really made me mad that someone else had touched him, and tried to hug him, but... after noticing the odd match of his clothes... and then when Brother Alis showed me the news...

I quickly grasped the situation. Lucien must have hated that some other person had touched him, and... he threw his clothes!

I knew what kind of a person Lucien was!

I didn’t know him from before but the trust he gained and the way he made his way in my heart... I didn’t know why this happened but... I just believed him!

"What do you what me to look at you for?" Lucien asked as he turned toward me.

I slowly got out of the bed, trying to keep myself steady.

"Why can’t I ask you that?" I said in a trembling tone as my body was still weak and standing on my foot was tough for me.

"Didn’t your brother just say you can’t be with me because of my ex..." Lucien’s voice broke slightly near the end, as his voice trailed off. His gaze flicked to mine as if he wanted to see my reaction.

"Yes," I said in a steady tone but I felt my heart clench. I didn’t look away from him and added "I’m listening, please continue."

Lucien looked down for a second, his jaw tightening, as though he was trying to figure out what he should say.

"I don’t know..." he muttered in a soft tone.

It looked like he wanted to say something or explain things to me but it seemed like something was stuck in his chest and no matter how hard he tried to push it out, it wouldn’t move.

"Lucien." I said his name gently, but there was a hidden plea in that.

Then I slowly moved, taking a one slow and shaky step and then another. My legs screamed in protest, but I didn’t stop.

I walked until the distance between us disappeared, until I could feel the tension in his body from where I stood.

Lucien didn’t reach for me, but his eyes followed every single one of my movements with an intensity that made my skin prickle.

It seemed he was looking out of me so that I wouldn’t collapse. Like part of him wanted to stop me, and another part was conflicting.

There was concern in his expression that was buried under that usual coldness he wore.

But I could see it.

Now, I stood in front of him, though I felt weak and unsteady, but I stood firmly and glanced at him.

"How could you treat me like this?" I said through my clenched teeth as my voice shaking a little.

"You’re the person I claimed for myself!" I declared again in a loud tone, making him look at me, but he averted my gaze just as quickly.

I reached for his hand, grabbed it tightly, and pulled him toward me, forcing him to meet my eyes and look at me.

"You’re the one I love," I said, voice breaking as I was shocked myself with my horrifying honesty! But I didn’t care about that at the moment.

"And you don’t get to leave me because of some ex coming back, or... or because my brothers are against you, or whatever else is in your head right now."

I could barely breathe. The words were tumbling out of me too fast, too desperate, like I was trying to hold onto him because I knew it could slip away at any moment.

"I’ll deal with them," I continued, choking on the air. "I’ll take care of my brothers. I’ll do whatever it takes. But you—" I stopped just long enough to inhale, lungs aching with the effort. "You don’t get to walk away from me like this."

Lucien’s POV

"Who said I’m leaving you?" I murmured, the words coming out lower than I intended. I glanced at her then and for a second, I forgot how to breathe.

She stood there, barely steady on her feet, eyes wide and burning, and the corner was red because she was tyring hard to hold her tears.

I didn’t know what I expected when Alistair mentioned my ex in front of Sera. I was scared and wanted to explain myself.

I had thought that she would not talk to me and would want to distance herself from me but...

But this?

Her voice shaking with fury, fear and love, her weak body was refusing to collapse, her hand gripping mine as if she wanted to ground me, and assure me that nothing was gone!

I wasn’t ready for that.

I was stunned with her last sentence.

It wasn’t because of the words, she’d said them before more than once. But back then, she’d been drunk. Her eyes glazed, voice heavy with liquor and desperation.

Back then I’d told myself she didn’t mean any of it, that it was just her pain trying to cling to something warm.

But this time was different.

This time, she was sober and fully aware. There was no fog in her voice. She looked me straight in the eye and said I was hers and that she loved me, and that nothing, not her brothers, not my past, not anyone else, could change that.

And I didn’t know what to do with that, with her boldness!

Because part of me wanted to believe her.

I wanted to reach out, pull her into me, bury my face in her hair and inhaled her sweet scent deeply.

But the other part that had lived through too many betrayals in my life, and the love that was turned into weapon against me.

That part didn’t trust how good this felt.

And in reality... I hadn’t done a damn thing to deserve her faith and I never asked for her love.

And I sure as hell didn’t know how to hold onto her and would be able to protect her after seeing Evelyn back.

"I know what you’re thinking!"

Her voice cut straight through the noise in my head, suddenly and sharply.

For a moment I just stared at her, stunned at how easily she saw through me.

"Lucien..." she said in a low and soft tone, making the wall crack in my heart.

"There are so many things I want to say to you," she continued, her eyes searching mine like she wasn’t sure if whatever she was saying was reaching me or not!

"But before I say anything else, you need to understand this... And I’m saying you must understand this!"