CHAPTER 559: FAREWELL LILY

Lily felt her heart fall into tiny bits.

She had been hoping, excited that she would finally get to leave.

So she wasn’t just being rejected, she was also being abandoned.

She weakly sat back down on the mattress.

"I thought about it and decided coming along wouldn’t be helpful to either of us." He said.

Lily’s throat was dry.

She had nothing to say.

She was too weak.

All this while.

All those years that she had spent being raised to be his mate.

The Luna of the pack.

It was all for nothing.

She swallowed hard and could feel her wolf going week.

"I understand that I’ve disappointed you."

He began. "But I’ve made a lot of mistakes. Mistakes I’m not proud of. Mistakes I should have never made especially as an Alpha. I have let a lot of people down. And if I can go back, I’ll take it all back."

Lily said nothing.

She had nothing to say.

She rubbed her very tensed fingers on the bedsheets.

"Is it because of Jasmine?" She couldn’t help asking.

Xaden seemed hesitant at first. "Not quite. It’s everything that has happened. I’m trying to do things right now."

She felt the tears behind her eyes.

"If you still wish to be my mate, and Luna of this pack. If that’s what’s you really want then I can’t force you. But I will never change. We will never have children and I will never love you. You would hate our mate bond and you would grow to hate yourself. Is that what you want?"

She shivered and shook her head.

"No."

She couldn’t be in a loveless marriage.

She had grown to learn that people didn’t really change in relationships.

Only if they wanted to and from Xaden, she could tell he was never going to.

Not for her at least.

Trying her best to send her mind elsewhere.

"What’s going to happen to me then?" Lily found herself asking

He gave a slight shrug. "What do you want? It’s all in your hands."

"Uther wouldn’t be happy." Lily said.

The moment those words escaped her lips, Lily instantly regretted it.

Xaden still had no idea about his uncle’s ulterior motives.

"Whether we are mates or not is none of my uncle’s business." Xaden said plainly. "It’s yours to make."

And then it finally hit her.

Her entire life growing up, she had been raised to be Xaden’s mate.

The future Luna.

It was her destiny.

She was the perfect she wolf for him.

She was groomed to be his lifelong partner.

That was all she had ever known.

And now that she was being rejected, she was being given the opportunity to map out her own life.

She thought about all the times that she spent growing to be his.

Was it what she had always wanted?

Or was it what Uther had wanted and she has grown to believe that it was the best thing for her.

The realization finally started to hit her.

This wasn’t what she wanted for herself.

Xaden was never what she wanted for herself.

She had been so stupid and foolish.

Naively led to believe that this was what she wanted.

What did she actually want for herself.

"Forget about me. Forget about everyone. It’s you. What would you like to do with yourself?" He asked as though reading her mind.

She was quiet for a very long time and the only thing she could think of was.

"I think I’ll like to leave this place."

She found herself speaking.

Xaden looked at her and then slowly nodded. "If that’s what you want then I’ll support and fund it. You’re free to live your life Lily. You don’t owe me or anything."

She bit her bottom lip.

This was the very first time she was making such a decision on her own.

She thought of everything she had done.

How much blood she had.

The letters she had falsified.

She had never intended on Jasmine losing her baby but nonetheless she was as responsible.

She didn’t know if she could live with herself.

She could never turn to anyone because Anna had her as leverage.

She was trapped in her own mistakes.

This was her one escape.

"I’ve heard of a convent for she wolves. It’s simple and far from the complexities of being a wolf. I think I’ll like to go there." She finally voiced out.

It was far from everything.

She would be far from everyone.

She felt her throat tighten as she thought of the guilty weighing against her.

She had killed an innocent baby, simply because she wanted a man who was never going to want.

A man she now that she thought about it, didn’t want her.

"Then you can have that." He said. "I want to apologize for everything. As the Alpha of the pack, I should be able to be a better example. And I have failed you."

She didn’t reply.

She knew she could never tell him what had happened to the baby.

She most certainly couldn’t warn him about the impeding evil that lived within his sister without exposing her own self.

He rose up to his feet from the chair he sat on.

She knew what was about to happen.

Still shaken, she rose and he said.

"I, Alpha Xaden of the Crescent pack, rejects you Lily, she wolf and resident of the Crescent pack."

The moment those words were ushered she felt it like a connection had been cut instantly.

Her wolf wept and she gasped at the pain of being severed from him.

He held her from tumbling down to the beautiful marble floors.

She breathed heavily and sat back down on the bed.

"Are you fine?" He asked.

She nodded. "Yes I am."

"Thank you." He said to her.

She nodded weakly trying to hold back the tears.

He headed towards the door.

"Xaden." She stopped him.

He turned his handsome face to stare at her.

She breathed heavily. "I am sorry for everything."

He seemed confused at first but he simply nodded with a boyish grin and said. "I bid you well Lily."

And that was the last she had ever seen of him.

She couldn’t tell him what to be wary of, she could only apologize for something he knew nothing of.

As the carriage rolled off, she knew that she would forever live with the guilt.