CHAPTER 324: UNBEARABLE ENVY

Han Bi drank alone, her mind and body exhausted. She didn’t want to say another word. She didn’t want to hate anyone or blame anyone. Linda sat beside her and drank with her. For so many years, they had been a team in a foreign land.

Linda was with Han Bi alone in the United States. When Han Bi first arrived, she struggled with the language. To be worthy of Feimo, she acted and studied at the same time, earning a degree and learning two foreign languages. She wanted to prove that she was better than anyone and that she was worthy of him.

She did so much, but she endured the loneliness and never contacted him.

Even though she didn’t contact him, her bookshelf was filled with magazines and newspapers about him. She bought every single one of them, even the ones with his dating rumors, just to know what was going on in his life.

Over the years, Ye Feimo would always show up at the same events as her—award ceremonies, jewelry launches, or other events she attended. Every time, he would be with a different woman. She was so jealous and heartbroken to see it.

He was just making an excuse to be in the same place as her and to be a little closer to her. And she also walked around with different men, passing him by for seven years.

Every time she saw his cold eyes, she had an irresistible urge to go back to him, but she held herself back.

If she had returned just one year earlier, maybe the outcome for her and Feimo would have been different. If she had been willing to approach him just once over the years, he might have forgiven her and they could have moved past their differences.

But she didn’t. She didn’t because of her damned pride and status.

If only she had done it sooner...

Han Bi took a tissue and wiped away her tears. Her heart ached terribly, and she felt like she was suffocating. When she thought of Ye Feimo and Wen Nuan, she felt as if she was being deep-fried in oil.

"Han Bi, if you really love him, go fight for him. Why are you hiding at home and feeling sorry for yourself?" Linda said, unable to watch anymore. "Wen Nuan even had the nerve to hit you, and you’re just going to let it go?"

"Fight for him?" Han Bi said with a bitter smile. "Haven’t I fought for him enough? To get him back, I’ve done so many things I shouldn’t have done. No matter how hard I fight, if Feimo’s heart is no longer mine, it’s useless. I was too confident. I always thought he would be faithful and wait for me forever, but who knew he would end up falling in love with someone else? Have you seen his photos with Wen Nuan? I’ve never seen him smile so happily. I’ve never seen him like that before. He really has fallen in love with Wen Nuan. I have no chance anymore. No chance at all..."

"How will you know if you don’t try?" Linda said. "Han Bi, if you can have his child, won’t you have a chance to marry him?"

"What are you talking about?" Han Bi looked at her, feeling as if she was dreaming. To have Feimo’s child? When they were in F City, even in that situation where he was full of desire, he was able to stop at the last minute. What else could she hope for? He wore the watch she gave him for seven years, but in the end, he returned it to her. What else could she believe?

She was slowly starting to believe that Ye Feimo really didn’t love her anymore.

Even if she was his first love and he couldn’t forget her, she no longer had a place in his heart. She should have realized that a long time ago.

She was so unwilling to accept it.

"Han Bi, you have to create your own opportunities," Linda said, whispering something in Han Bi’s ear. Han Bi wiped away her tears and said in a low voice, "Enough, stop it."

"This is a great opportunity. I taught you last time."

"Linda, what are you talking about? I don’t want to become so ugly. I don’t want to lose the last bit of good he sees in me. Stop giving me such terrible ideas." Han Bi was extremely displeased. She tilted her head back and took another gulp of wine. Tears rolled down the corners of her eyes. "I’ve made my own bed. I’m the one who ruined my own love. Why was I so stupid?"

She now realized that no amount of money could buy back the love they once had. No amount of honor could compare to one of Feimo’s smiles back then. No amount of success could make up for her first love. She was the one who had destroyed her own happiness.

If she hadn’t been so ambitious back then and had been an actress who was on the fence between being first-tier and second-tier, she would have had a group of fans—maybe not as many as she has now—but she would have been able to make a living, have a good life, and have a cozy little family. That kind of happiness couldn’t be bought now.

"Then what do you want to do? Are you just going to do nothing and give Second Young Master Ye to her? Are you willing to do that?" Linda asked sharply. Han Bi covered her head, not wanting to hear Linda’s sermon.

She had used every method she could. She had even lowered herself to beg Feimo. What else could she do?

"What’s so great about Wen Nuan? How dare she steal your man? Han Bi, have some self-respect and confidence," Linda said. Han Bi gave a bitter smile.

Confidence?

It wasn’t that she lacked confidence. When she compared herself to Wen Nuan, she was very confident. But...

Did being confident mean she could win back a man’s heart?

"I’m so jealous of Wen Nuan," Han Bi said with a self-deprecating laugh.

"She grew up with a silver spoon in her mouth, with no worries, and was cherished by her parents like a princess. She’s never experienced hardship, hunger, or cold. She’s never been looked down upon.

And now, she has Feimo protecting her every step of the way. She’s flourishing in the entertainment industry. She became as popular as a first-tier actress within six months of her debut. Who has her kind of luck? When I see her, I think of my old self. It took me so much effort to get a good opportunity, but she got a chance to be on the big screen and star in a film by Lin Ning without any effort.

I worked so hard in the industry, having dinner and singing for people, bowing and being careful not to offend anyone. But she doesn’t have to worry about anything. Cai Xiaojing and Feimo handle everything for her. Everyone in the industry knows she’s Anning’s new favorite.

Just because she was bullied, Ye Feimo was able to hunt down the person who bullied her and had her tortured beyond recognition and then sent to become a prostitute to be abused by anyone.

Why does she get to have all this? Everyone in the industry says she and Lin Ning are very close, but they don’t know that she’s Ye Feimo’s girlfriend. Feimo protects her and helps her with everything. She can get an opportunity that others can’t get in ten years with just one word.

Why is Wen Nuan so lucky? Why is she so favored by fate? It’s not fair. It’s really not fair. Ye Feimo and Fang Liucheng, two men, both love her so much. Do you know why I didn’t want to be in *The Beautiful Lady*? It’s because Fang Liucheng was going to produce it for Wen Nuan, and they only asked me after Wen Nuan refused.

Linda, I’m so jealous of her. All the luck in the world is on her. She’s young, beautiful, kind, and popular. You say she’s not as good as me, but besides my fame, what do I have that’s better than hers?"

As Han Bi was saying this, she burst into laughter. Another bottle of wine was empty.