CHAPTER 52: I AM SINKING SHIP

Hours has passed since the horror took place, I made sure that Aria is fine before I took a shower and I settled in his room, I have a feeling my room is filled with the scent of blood.

I have been hiding up here until Luca walked into the room

"Are you still going to leave?" Luca asked when a tear slipped out of my eyes.

"No." I lied, he didn’t have to know, this time I am smarter and I would do anything to have the life I deserve.

Where I am not suppressed by my parents, or step sister, or Conrad or even Luca.

"I will stay Luca but I need time." I lied, I glanced at him when I saw a flicker of hope in his eyes. "I need a little space." I lied again and he nodded.

"Whatever you need, I will prove to you that, I care for you beyond these walls, beyond the curse." He said and I nodded.

I glanced at him one more time before I headed out into another room, that’s where I would be staying before I leave

Victor is dead and so is Conrad, there is no threat anymore, we didn’t have to worry about anything and I have a feeling the guards in the house will reduce, all I need is an escape, I can’t leave at night, that was my first mistake but not anymore, if I have to leave, I need to be sure he will never find me.

I guess now I have some knowledge and I have learnt from the best.

I remained in my room for hours until it was time for dinner, by the time I got there, I realized all of my favorite meals were prepared, I didn’t smile, I don’t know how long I can even pretend, I have no idea if I can even continue this.

"Come," Luca spoke and I sat beside him, my eyes softly met Ares who looked away from me instantly.

Would he help me escape, leaving does not mean that I am not Luca’s mate, his curse will still be contained so he will be fine, I just don’t want to be found and Ares, it’s not like he ever liked me, even if he didn’t know about the curse, only a one third part of it, not all.

It’s not like he ever wanted me to be here.

I would be stupid if I asked him for help, I have a feeling it’s going to go back to Luca, and I can’t have him keeping an eye on me.

"What’s wrong, don’t you like it?" Luca asked.

"Can you just stop?" I breathed out, a wave of annoyance washed over me, I am not Aria, I can’t pretend, I am not Luca, I don’t know how to maintain a lie for a long time.

"I- Luca just stop it," I yelled cutting him off. "Fucking stop it, I can’t take it anymore, this pretense, you are pretending like it’s all fine, it’s perfect, like you didn’t betray me, when all that you have ever done is lie to me, can you for once just be yourself and not lie about anything, you say you care but you don’t, you say you will do anything for me but when I say it, you don’t listen, your love is a lie, your care is a fucking lie and if you love me or even care for me, you would fucking let me go, and maybe work on yourself because you need a lot of help," I yelled.

I didn’t wait for him to speak before heading out of the room, my chest was tight, I didn’t want to cry anymore, I didn’t want to feel sad anymore, it felt like that’s all I had been feeling lately and I didn’t want to do that.

The sound of my door cracked open and I wiped my tears.

"Leave Luca, before I say something I will regret, before you say something that you will regret, before we both get mad at each other and you continue being toxic." I breathed out.

"If someone else yelled at him the way you did, said the same things that you said, I promise you, that person would not make it out of the room." I heard a familiar voice, I glanced and my eyes met Ares.

He had a frown on his face, he moved closer to me and I looked away when he stood beside me.

"Did you come here to force me to forgive him, because I can’t, all I want to do is leave here, I don’t even know where but I know that, all my life has been controlled by others and I don’t blame them because I let them do that but now I am done." I breathed out.

I just need to find myself, I need to know who I am not who Conrad wants me to be, not who Luca thinks I am, not who his pack want me to be, all I want right now is to be myself, eat, sleep, watch the type of movies I want, I don’t want anything to be expected from me, I don’t even want to step out of my own house, yes I want o have a house.

"What do you want Ares, at least you are the only honest person here, you never really liked me, you have shown that from day one all that you have done is for your Alpha and you listen to what he says, no matter what I say and I guess that’s it." I breathed out.

"I didn’t come here to beg for him, I saw it in your eyes, you are not ready to listen and Luca, he is hurt by the way you treat him, the way you yell, even though he knows that you don’t mean it, it doesn’t matter because he hopes that one day you will see him for who he is."

"He killed his fucking parents." I breathed out, I choked back on a sob and more tears streamed down my cheek.

"Always ask for two sides of a story, because you can’t make a whole book without knowing the perspective of the person involved." Ares spoke.

"What do you mean?"

"It doesn’t matter, you already made your decision, you do realize he will do anything to find you; he is connected to you."

"He is only connected if I want him to be, I will turn everything off if it means he will not find me, I will force my wolf to occupy her mind with something else, I will force my mind never to think about him if I have to." I breathed out when a tear slipped out of my eyes.

"You hate him that much."

"I don’t-" I started to speak when I chocked back on a sob, "I don’t hate Luca, I don’t think I would ever will, maybe there is always going to be part of me that would always care for him, but right now, I don’t even know what I want, all I know is that, I need to leave, I want to leave and maybe I will be back Ares, maybe I won’t be."

"If you leave, you are never coming back." He said and I turned to look at him, his tone was filled with seriousness and his eyes were filled with darkness. "Luca will do all he can to find you, he will burn the world to find you and I will stop him."

"Why would you want to help; he will be hurt if I leave, and he will hate you if he finds out you helped him."

"He won’t, that’s up to me to figure out, you don’t have to worry about it, Luca will move on from you, you will not reject him so he will always be protected from his curse at all times and I will make sure that he will never find you, he would focus on being a great Alpha, he will even be better than he always thought he is, he will be strong and powerful and you can have any life you want."

"What is it to you Ares, why don’t you want me here?" I asked.

"Does it matter?" He asked, I didn’t think it did, because all I want to do is leave, maybe he is doing it for my sake, he only knows the reason and I know he cares about him more than anyone would, he saw him as a brother, someone always there for him.

"What happens if he finds me?"

"He won’t, he would not even know you are gone until you are far away from this place, you control your wolf and no one else, you can control her to never think about him, even if she starts to, you make her change her mind."

"Will you keep him safe Ares?" I whispered, I don’t know if I didn’t want to come back, but right now I want to take his offer, I want to have that life for me.

"I would lay my life for Luca, I would sacrifice the world if it means that he is fine, he is my Alpha, my brother." He said. "Just say the word."

"Help me leave Ares." I breathed out.