CHAPTER 62: HE CAN’T WIN

"I don’t remember inviting you, this is a private party and you can’t be here," Sebastine stated as he stared at Luca, and Luca on the other hand glanced at me, reminding me that if this man is still alive it’s only because of him, I watched as he pulled out an invite and before he could speak, he handed it over to him.

"Bullshit, this is fake." He yelled and all attention turned to us, each day he keeps making it even harder to keep him alive. "Now before I have the security get called and beat you to a pulp, I want you out of my house, and I don’t want you anywhere close to it or else I will have the cops here." He yelled.

The music hit even lower, and I felt a wave of anxiety overtake me when Luca glanced at everyone else, he didn’t speak, he didn’t pull out his gun or even a knife, it didn’t seem like he was going to kill him.

Did he really love me to this extent, have himself disgraced and embarrassed because of me when he could just have this over with?

I could hear murmurs and whispers and I didn’t like it, Luca didn’t deserve to be treated like that, he deserved to be happy, and not be treated in a way no one should.

"That’s Luca De Jesus." Someone yelled. "The Alpha." Another yelled and a gasp filled the room, they all moved backwards like they were scared that he was going to hurt them and the music started to play as if the man’s life depended on it.

They all wanted to pretend like this is not happening and I am sure they can all think about how it’s going to be when this man here dies, in a second, I watched as a few people walked out of the room.

Luca has done a lot of horrible things to earn his name and his family, De Jesus, has created a number of Alphas that have left their mark all over the world.

Sebastine can’t win a fight against him.

"De Jesus." He asked and Luca didn’t speak, he only stared at me because his eyes were on me; it’s the only way he is going to calm down if not he won’t, and I can imagine that.

I glanced at Sebastien before I pulled away from him and I moved toward Luca,

"Let’s go." I breathed out. I need him calm enough to get him out of here without having any one of these people killed here, it’s not their fault.

"You are leaving with him, have you heard the horrible things about- not now, I am sick of this, for the last two days all you have done is try to make me feel horrible for ever going out with someone like him, yes I did and that’s who I am and yes I made mistake and yes there is a part of me that still loves him and I always will," I yelled cutting him off.

I didn’t mean to be rude, I could not help.

"You are more than this, you are not the monster that he should be with; he should be with someone like himself."

"You are only alive because I asked him to keep you alive and you keep talking, I would not be able to stop him if he gets angry."

"That’s the type of person he is, one that kills another because of a mere anger, look at me, you were happy after you left, you didn’t have to worry about him and you found two people that care for you, that will do just about anything for you," Sebastian spoke.

I stared at him, unsure of what to say.

"Luca I will meet you outside." I breathed out like a dog to its owner, he didn’t say a word he only walked out of the room, God this is not him, he is someone else.

"He is gone now, you don’t have to pretend."

"I am not, I always loved him, I didn’t come here to find anyone and you know that, now all of a sudden you want to make it look like we have been in an powerful relationship for a very long time and you are aware of the fact that we can never be together, we have not even been in a room alone for more than five minutes and now it’s like you want to be in love with me when you know I can’t."

"I know you do, deep down you are only confused, you have an idea of what’s going on and you think you should be with him because all this time he has made you think that, he stayed close to you, influencing your wolf without you even knowing."

"Believe it or not, I am not as dumb as you think I am, I can be smart and this, whatever this is, it’s over, it’s never going to happen again, I would leave your building if I have to but I can’t deal with this, you stay away from Luca if you want to stay alive," I whispered. "You can ask anyone in this room and they will say the same to you. I have stopped him for as long as I can but not anymore because he would not be able to be stopped again if you say a word to him."

At the end Luca didn’t ruin anything, Sebastien did, he wanted to be more than friends, I should have seen it.

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"This does not mean I am coming back with you."I breathed out when I saw Luca and he smirked like he had won. We headed into his car and I felt like I was in a better place, I was better off being here than inside that place. I didn’t want to see his face anymore.

"Where do you want to head to?" Luca asked

"Anywhere, I don’t want to head back to the apartment, I don’t want to see Natalie at the moment." I breathed out, and he nodded, just like that he understood what I wanted.

I have never been so frustrated as I was, Sebastien annoyed me so badly even when he knew that I didn’t want to be with him, I guess the signs were there and I badly ignored them, I should have told him to stay away from me from that moment yet I didn’t.

"Why did you stop?" I whispered when he turned to look at me, his eyes softly on mine when I realized we were by the road, it seemed like there was no one here.

I watched as rain tapped against the windows, it seemed like it had been raining for a while and I didn’t even realise it.

"What, you are starting to stare at me." I breathed out and he rolled his eyes at me, I felt better being here. "Why don’t I hate you Luca, when I left, I was filed with so much anger and hate; and I was convinced I didn’t need you anymore before I will move on from you and that would be it, yet it didn’t make any sense, after a day, I felt empty, I should hate for what you did, you used me and you lied."

"I hate myself for what I have done to you," Luca whispered. "I never wanted to hurt you, but I didn’t know how to tell you the truth."

"Why? You had so many chances yet you did, what else have you been hiding from me?" I whispered. "You know everything about me, you know me from the moment I came to you, tell me the truth." I breathed out. "I just want to know everything and you never let me know, you waited until someone else told me and by then I got so angry that I was not able to even let you close to me."

"The truth, the truth is I love you, the truth is I didn’t realise that until you left, the truth is, I didn’t make you fall for me because of the curse, yes I wanted you for the curse, that was my first thought when I saw you but when I started to have my men go around to make sure you are fine even when you didn’t know who I am, even when every day I would get pictures of your activities, I realized it’s not only about curse, I wanted you to be with me and when I realized that you were suffering and tortured by Conrad, I found a way to get you to be with me, I didn’t care for your husband, I could have killed him, yet I didn’t, I wanted you to see him for who he is."

"That’s the problem, Luca, you always control things, in your own way and I understand you need control but I can’t handle it". I breathed out