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“I know she’s already asleep but with everything she’s been through this morning I think a little bit of Valium would help bher /bbboth /bmentally and physically.”

She holds her hand out with a small syringe in her palm.

“It’s up to you.”

“I don’t want to drug her down too much right now and I don’t like the idea of giving her a shot while she’s sleeping. What did you bfind/bb?: /b

“She does have a decent tear, so I’m d I went the route I did as it was far less painful and quicker. It’s about two inches long but bit was /bresponding nicely to the after tie medication before I cleaned everything up. I’lle up to your room around nine tonight with the second dose and walk you through giving it to her. If you have Valium in pill form I would rmend her to take that around 8:30 as the second dose still tends to be a bit painful.”

“Thank you, Ang.”

She gives me a smile as I pull her into a hug.

“I’m going to head over to the medical wing. bI’ve /bbgot /ba physical toplete at 11:30 before bI /bbcan /bcheck on Cole.b” /b

“I’ll be headed over to Cole once I leave here. Then I’m going to have lunch with all of the trainersb./bb” /b

She gives me a final nod before leaving the room.

I make my way back to Lilly,ying on the bed with her. I pull her closer to me. She whimpers at first until I touch her face band /bspeak to her.

“Lilly, I wish I could stay with you. All I want is to hold you tight and never let go.”

She opens her eyes and looks into mine. Her normally stunning blue eyes are dull, filled with sadness and worryb. /b

“The only thing today changes is how I help you deal with your past. I certainly won’t ever wear a condom with you again.”

I stifle a smallugh but at least earn a smile from her.

“Was that what you changed? Is that why you suddenly felt like him?”

“Yes Lilly. All I did was put on a condom and pull you back so your thighs were leaning against mine. I felt you change as soon as bI /bpulled you back. That’s why I stopped. I knew it triggered the memories. I’m sorry Lilly. bI /bshould have never done that to you.”

“Don’t be. I needed to finally know.”

“Why did you wait so long to tell me?”

“I was convinced of a lot of things when he was training me. A lot of them I still struggle not to believe. He would always tell me that the luna of a pack had to be pure but that no alpha wants a luna that doesn’t know how to please him. That telling anyone what he did to me would make me a whore in your eyes and worthy of rejection.”

I take a deep breath trying to process everything.

“How did seeing Cole’s injuries to his chest trigger your memories? What made you change your mind babout /bbtalking /bbaout /bbit/bb?/bb” /b

“There was a period of time when he spanked me while I was still tied to the bed. It created cuts and bruises ball /bover bmy /bbchest /bband /bbbelly/bb. /bbMuch /blike what I saw on him today. The tenderness bI /bsaw with how youforted him and reassured himb, /bba /bbplete /bbstranger /bbthat /bbyou /bbjust /bbmet /breminded me of how you treated me early in our rtionship. How you fought with your father over bpleting /bbthe /bbmate’s /bbunion /bbceremony /b

because you knew I wasn’t ready for sex. How patiently you waited for me to be ready and how you have let bgo /bof your own sexual bdesires /bbto /bkeep mefortable. I should have told you sooner. Maybe I could have learned to like bsex /bafter all that’s bhappened /bto me

bShe /byelps bas /bI suddenly straddle herb, /bsliding my hands under her and lowering my body down against her.

“You enjoy it more than you allow yourself to know and I have every intention of slowlyb, /bgently teaching you how. You deserve to bfeel /bbit /bbas /bbit /bshould be without the fear and anxiety you’vee to know. I love you and I won’t give up on making you happy.”

I capture her lips gently in mine. I can tell how tired she is by how hard it is for her to keep catch our breath. I gently rub the back of her head when she tries to resume the bkiss /bagain.

“It’s okay to sleep, Lilly. I’ll be backter. Are you in any pain?” olliup. /li/ol

I lean my head upon her forehead as we both

She shakes her head as her eyes start to droop again. I slide off her bso /bthat I’m bface /bto face with her again, gently stroking her btemple /bbas /bbshe /bfalls asleep.

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