CHAPTER 203: HOLDING ON

JOSIE

I turned as I felt the tightness in my stomach. I have wasn’t so sure that I was capable of breathing. Infact all that I felt was pure pain.

Thorne looked at me as he stood in the podium. His aura was blinding but I just couldn’t bring myself to look away. I slowly walked as slowly as I could to meet him, feeling Kiel’s calm presence beside me. It was the most comforting thing ever.

"Josie," Thorne whispered softly.

I shook my head lightly. "I want to leave right now. I don’t wish to stay here anymore, after...." I forced myself not to turn towards Varen, wondering if he was behind me.

"Just give me a few minutes. The pack members are all looking at us and it would cause a lot of drama if we didn’t diffuse the situation. You know how people love to gossip. I don’t want that to happen right now."

I gave a stiff nod as I took my place beside him. Kiel pressed my hand in support but I found it difficult to smile, choosing to look down on the floor instead.

I felt Thorne hold my hand and I looked up at him calmly. "Everything is like I said earlier. Josie is the best thing to ever happen to me and that is never going to change we have decided that the wedding would be quickened. As it is now, so much time has been wasted in issues that were irrelevant and that shouldn’t be so anymore," He added as he addressed as he spoke to me.

I smiled lightly. "Thank you."

He smirked. Kiel ticked my hand and when I turned, his lips were right on mine. It was the sweetest feeling in the world, knowing that I was loved by these people and I understood that nothing would ever change.

"This is great, Alpha," Someone gushed.

Kiel caressed my cheek. "See," He teased. "There is nothing for you to worry about."

"Kiel is right," Thorne gushed. "I can’t wait for you to be ours. The things I want to do with your body needs to be written in a dark book because I just can’t get enough of you "

Goddess!

How could he be so loving after it all? It’s not that I was complaining but I hated the change that I saw in Varen. He was not like this before but he was speaking to that woman. I have not seen her before and...

"Future Luna!" Someone snapped rudely.

I turned to see a middle aged woman glaring at me. "Is there a problem?"

"We should be asking you that. Are you going to marry three Alphas or two Alphas?" She asked rudely, causing whispered as she spurn her glass of wine. "I mean, it’s quite evident that Alpha Varen can’t stand you."

"Shut up!" Kiel snapped beside me as my heart rate spiked. "You have forgotten your place and everything Josie has done for all of you. You should be ashamed."

She bowed low.

Thorne led me through without saying a word and the crowd nervously gave way. I tried hard not to cry as we moved through the pack halls. The maids were also trying to avoid us too from what I could see.

"We are here," Thorne said the moment I stepped foot in front of the door.

I turned slowly to look at them. They were looking at me in worry. These few weeks, they’ve come to understand me and I knew that they realized that I was breaking inside. But, I didn’t want to burden them more. Marcy had been right. This was my fight and I had to do it alone.

Kiel took a step towards me. "I would come inside with you. I know you need us to do some random shit so you can detox considering the celebration was...." He looked at his brother.

I smiled tightly, touching his chest a bit. "I have no complaints."

"But..."

I shook my head. "Nothing. I’m okay, Kiel. I just need my bed right now. We would talk as you want later. Trust me."

He gave me a look but Thorne pulled him back. I sighed in relief.

"Let’s leave our princess alone for a second. She needs us. You don’t need to worry about anything. She would be able to take care of herself because I know that she is quite sensible."

I smiled stiffly. "Thanks for believing me, Alpha," I whispered.

He pulled away from his brother and took my hand before packing me right on the cheeks. Then, his hand moved to cheeks and he pecked me on the forehead with so much love that made my heart mist. "You don’t have to thanks me for doing so little. You be safe."

I could only nod weakly as I watched them walk away. I stepped into the room and slammed the door shut, while resting my back against it. Varen’s Ill behavior was right in my head, taunting me.

"Why do you want to ruin us?" I whispered.

Angry tears slid down my cheeks and I cleaned it off impatiently. "I’m not going to let that happen though. I would fight for us"

I walked quickly and noticed the clothes on the bed. Without thinking, I grabbed it and stepped out. The colourful material made everything more bright. But, I could barely see anyone. Just when I passed the bar, I heard voices that caused me to stop.

"Come on man," Kiel was saying. "We need to go fight in our wolf forms. That’s the only way that we can be able to detox."

Thorne clicked his tongue. "I’m too tired. I’m worried about..."

"You don’t need to be. You said that we should leave there remember?"

I sighed, unable to listen to any more of their words. I had to leave this place before they picked my scent. With a sigh, I made my way to Varen’s room. I was about to turn the knob when I heard heavy breathing.

"Luna, you’re not allowed to be here!"

I turned to see a guard there. "Are you crazy?"