CHAPTER 35: CHAPTER 35 MASON AND GIANNA

Mason stood in front of his girlfriend’s, Gianna’s house.

The last time they spoke was two days ago when he discovered something in her apartment.

They had been dating for a while and from the moment he saw her, he had a strong attraction for her.

This was a big deal because Caden and himself had been playboys for the longest. They had been finding it hard to feel any strong attraction for any woman.

But when Mason met Gianna, it had felt as if his entire world had finally fallen into place.

He didn’t want to go clubbing anymore, he couldn’t find any other woman attractive, he loved the person he was when he was with her.

For her, he could do anything and everything. His joy knew no bounds when she finally agreed to date him.

Everything had been going well for him after that. Being with Gianna after a long day at work felt like the highlight of his day.

Until two days ago, while he was searching for his car keys, he thought he had kept it on the drawer in her bedroom, but when he searched through the drawer, he found something that surprised him.

He found handcuffs, whip, and all sorts of devices.

Of course, he instantly knew they were used during sex, during BDSM.

He had thought Gianna was just a sweet girl, he never pictured that she was into something like this. She had found him going through the devices and she had looked mortified.

What shocked him the most was when she admitted that men didn’t use all that on her, it was her who used those equipment on men.

Meaning, she was the dominant in the relationship.

It was quite common for men to be the dominant in BDSM, plus, he had always seen her as a calm, sweet girl so it was hard to picture her in that sense.

Before he could even process what he had just discovered, she had asked him to leave.

Mason had spent two days not reaching out to her and trying to understand how and why she was into something like that.

It wasn’t as if he had great judgment or prejudice against people into BDSM, he just never thought she was into it or even being the dominant.

But strangely, he wanted to know. He wanted to know everything about her.

He slowly rang the doorbell.

After a few seconds, the door opened.

His lips parted seeing her standing there in a messy bun.

She was a florist by profession but it seemed she hadn’t been to work in days.

“Can I come in?”He asked.

She nodded and led him in.

She gestured at a big bag.”Your things are already packed.”

Because they could barely stand being apart, they spent most of the time in each other’s house.

If she wasn’t in his house, then he was at hers.

So some of their belongings were in each other’s houses.

“You can send over my stuff.”She added.

Mason scoffed.”Are you breaking up with me?”

“I figured you didn’t know how to say it, this is for the best, Mason.”

“You said you loved me, Gigi.”He reminded.

“You already know something had changed between us after what you saw.”

“No...nothing changed.”

She eyed him.”So you’re okay with me, even while knowing that I’m broken?”

“I...I...”Mason walked up to her and held her hand.”I want to understand, make me understand. I want to know all of you.”

Tears filled Gianna’s eyes.”Fine, I guess that would kill any reluctance you have in your heart about ending this.” She took her hand away from his and sat down.

Mason sat beside her.

“I...I was raped when I was fifteen, by two guys. They were my brother’s friends.”

Mason’s eyes dilated.

“I was devastated, my family were, and my brother felt guilty that he didn’t protect me enough. He wasn’t there. No one was home when the boys came around. They had said they came to visit him, it wasn’t strange, they always came by to visit, my brother also frequently visited them, they were more like family, my family always ate with them. That day, I was in my room, while they were meant to wait for my brother, Liam, in his. They came over to mine, they had said they wanted to talk as they waited for Liam, but from talking, they...they started to touch me. They had told me I’d like it but I didn’t want them to touch me. They didn’t stop. They both...they both held me down and had their way with me, repeatedly. It was my first time. They messed with my body.” Gianna wiped the tears on her face.

She hated that she was reliving that memory. She had never told any man she’d been with about it.

But Mason was special to her.

Mason was the first man who made her feel normal, feel happy.

“My parents had come to meet me in the state in which the boys left me. They had been heartbroken and my brother went after them. He got into a fight with them. They had begged for forgiveness but what was that going to solve. My brother and parents couldn’t let go of it. They fought, they tried to at least get the boys punished but they were from wealthy families, they had connections. They were not punished for it. While I had to live with the pain of what they did to me. My brother and my parents tried to help me heal but for the first few years that happened, I...I was a shadow of myself, barely spoke, and when my family realized that I was suicidal, they watched me like a hawk. We even had to move to another city. The incident and the guilt of what his friends did made my brother study and work tirelessly to get rich, to get connections.”

“When I got into college, I was still barely surviving. But then I met a guy, he was really sweet to me. I found him cute. But I didn’t love him. When we finally had sex, during it, I had the impulse to hold his neck and I did, choking him to the point of him struggling with me. He had been mortified but I had felt happy putting him in pain. I don’t know what happened but something shifted inside of me. He didn’t want to be with me after that but I kept thinking of hurting men, the thought of hurting men made me happy, made me feel fulfilled. And I knew I had to experiment it. At first, I paid men to let me do whatever I wanted. And the more I did, the more I realized that hurting them, making them bleed, seeing my marks on them, making them beg made me sane.”

Mason swallowed.

Gianna continued.”If any man showed any interest in me, I told him straight up the kind of person I was in bed. At first, some would think they could handle it. Some handled it to some point. And then gave up. Some wanted to play the dominant instead but I wasn’t having that. Over time, when I finished college, I didn’t want anything long term or romantic, I just wanted to play the dominant in bed and did whatever I liked to men. So I drafted up a contract, made any willing man sign it and become mine to use for a few months. I wouldn’t lie, I made use of those good old days, I also came to know that there were some men who didn’t mind being the submissive.”

“My brother, Liam, didn’t give up fighting for justice. His hard work paid off and he made it big, the first thing he did was hunting down his friends. He made a lot of investigations, find out every one of the crimes they had committed, turns out I wasn’t their only victim, they had even killed one of the girls they took advantage of, Liam was able to find strong evidence, evidence that the boys’ family couldn’t fight off. Three years ago, after the court battle, both were sentence to 30 years in prison each. When that happened, I can still remember how Liam had cried, he had cried as he hugged me. I never blamed him once. I never thought it was his fault that his friends did that. After all, everyone thought they were nice guys but Liam didn’t stop blaming himself and giving me the justice I deserved had been his lifelong dream. I saw that it had also hindered his happiness too. All he wanted was for me to be happy. And I made him a promise that I would be happy. I thought that now that they were punished, I should try having a normal relationship. I saw a lot of therapist. I had gotten rid of some of the BDSM equipments, I had a lot of them back then but I couldn’t get rid of all for some reason. I even opened a flower shop because I wanted to feel as beautiful as a flower. And then I met you, I thought I could finally be like a normal girl, a normal girl in a romantic relationship.”

This was a lot for Mason to take in and he was quiet for a long time.

“So, are you happy? Are you happy being in a normal relationship with me?”He finally asked.

She nodded with tears filled eyes.

“Seeing how you couldn’t get rid of all the equipment, you still think about being a dom, don’t you?”

“I...I...”

“Don’t lie to me. Do you miss it?”

Gianna stood up.”Fine! Yes, I do. I thought I was over it. I just...I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I can’t feel normal.”

Mason stood up too.”You are pretty normal to me.”

“You don’t have to say that to make me feel better.”

“I’m not saying it to make you feel better but I don’t think you’re broken.”

She turned to face him.”You just heard everything. You know what I’ve been through, don’t you find me disgusting?”

Mason walked up to her.”No, I want to hug you.”

Tears fell from Gianna’s eyes.

Mason pulled her into his arms, he gently stroke her hair.

“I want you to know that you didn’t deserve what happened to you. You are a beautiful, lovely person. You didn’t deserve that. Seeing how hard you’ve tried to move on from it, I’m proud of you.”

Gianna burst into tears.

He had hugged her for a long time while she cried in his arms.

*******

An hour later found Mason sitting on the couch with Gianna on his laps, she was leaning against him.

“I can’t believe you packed up my stuff, so you wanted to break up with me just like that?” He asked.

She lifted up her head and pouted.”I thought you wanted a break up.”

“I love you, Gigi. I don’t want to be apart from you.”

She smiled and kissed him on the lips.

“Let me be your submissive.”He suddenly suggested.

She pulled back from him.”No.”

“C’mon, we could...”

“I want a normal relationship with you.”

“But you miss...”

“It doesn’t matter. Since you don’t mind my past, I...I don’t want anything to ruin our relationship now.”

“It won’t get ruined, I promise.”

“Do you even know what it means? Mason, you’re like the most manliest man I’ve ever been with, you literally own a security company, you’re like this tough boss, you can’t...”

“I can...for you, I can do anything. You just need to tell me what to do.”

“But...”

Mason cupped her cheeks.”I just don’t want you to feel like a part of you is missing, I want all of you, I want you to be yourself with me. I’d be your submissive as long as you want. We could even get married, have kids, and I’d still be your submissive anytime.”

Gianna was shocked to hear that.”You...you want to marry me?”

“From the moment I saw you, Gigi, I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you. My love for you isn’t going away no matter what. So feel free to be anything you want with me.”

She swallowed and admitted.”I really did think of wanting to play a dom again.”

“Then dominate however you want.”

Gianna bit her lower lip and smiled.

She felt so happy, as she stared at her big masculine lover.