CHAPTER 296: AREN’T YOU CONFIDENT YOU CAN PROTECT ME?

I was the center of all of this and while Hae-Jin read them to me, I couldn’t stop laughing.

It was hilarious.

It was like reading a novel and I couldn’t wait for the next part.

"Do you like the cake?" Hae-Jin asked. He was seated across from me in the company’s cafeteria, and I nodded.

It was a strawberry cake.

"That’s a relief." He said.

Since he needed to get me my coffee, he decided it would be better to go down to the cafeteria. But as soon as I saw the kind of pastries they had, as well as their robot servers, I decided to abandon coffee and take something more delicious.

The strawberry cake was just screaming for me to grab on to it and so I took it.

"But won’t you have anything?" I asked but he shook his head.

"Not while I’m on duty." He said and I nodded, understanding.

I heard bodyguards don’t eat or drink when they’re on duty. Cause it could serve as a distraction from their guarding duty.

Imagine being drowned by the sweetness of this cake when he’s supposed to protect me and so he doesn’t realize when someone walks in behind me and drops a bowl of soup on my head.

That would be very bad.

But if he’s head of security, shouldn’t he be like... Very skilled? Even when eating, he should still be able to pay attention to his surroundings.

Well, I guess he knows his own limits.

The eyes of the employees walking past us were as sharp as a razor.

They were sneering, whispering, and gritting their teeth, but none could approach cause I had a very formidable force sitting right across me.

Someone even tried to accidentally slip and drop a tray on my head, but Hae-Jin picked the empty cup in front of him and threw it at their other leg, forcing them to trip for real, but in the opposite direction.

It was like an action movie, I tell you.

So much action and superb reflexes.

"I don’t think we should stay here for much longer," Hae-Jin said, eyeing the red eyes that were planning to come at me.

"Why not? Aren’t you confident you can protect me?"

"While I am confident, I can’t stop something unforeseen." He said and I gave it a thought.

In this company that world with digital wares, the employees might decide to come after me with the robots next.

"I guess you’re right," I said and then stood up. "Let’s get going." Before this place becomes a survival ground.

Hae-Jin stood up and followed after me. He looked around, just to make sure there was no flying food.

Because it looked like I had made an enemy out of everyone and yet I didn’t care.

Of course, I didn’t care. I was living in the moment here.

I even went ahead to do something quite reckless. Wanna know what it is? You’ll find out later.

Instead of returning to Seo-Jun’s office, ’where it’s safe’ I went around the company some more.

Looking at the inventions, the system manufacturing room and even the normal floors where employees sat behind a desk, had dark eye bags from pulling all-nighters in the office and working on projects.

This period must have been partially hectic because of the project that had to do with Min-Cheol and Ki-hoon’s cooperation.

And yet... They had the time to check their phones, chat on their group chat, and cuss me out as being a shameless whore.

It made my blood boil, and I wanted to make some more trouble, but I refrained.

They could simply stare, sneer, and grit their teeth, but I wouldn’t let it get to me and just carry on with what I’m doing.

For example, get the cup of coffee I’ve been putting off for a while.

"Here’s your coffee," Hae-Jin said and I took it.

"Thank you," I said.

We were seated on the first floor. Yes, that very first floor where everyone seems to be out for such a juicy piece of information.

They couldn’t even hide their quest to squeeze information out of me from their eyes and for some reason, I chuckled.

I wondered if Seo-Jun was done with his meeting and had gone back to his office to work.

Or maybe he’s pent up?

I quickly shook my head.

Nothing good will come from my imagining such a scenario where I walk into his office and see something I shouldn’t see.

I mean, it’s not out of the question.

I did tell him he could continue.

I keep regretting saying that till today.

As long as he comes back? That’s the same thing as me saying I’d like to share you with the rest of the world.

What made me say some things like that anyway?

Was it the heat of the moment?

I can’t remember clearly.

Maybe it was because I didn’t want to feel burdened by his desires and his kinks. That was rather selfish of me, now that I think of it.

Because even after saying stuff like that, I still get bothered by the fact that he sleeps with others.

I shouldn’t, right? He has to share me with three other Alphas, not that I’m responsible for that arrangement, but you get what I mean, right?

Just thinking about it was getting me conflicted. To be honest, I have these complicated feelings that even I don’t understand.

Is it because I have submission among my survival skills?

In order to survive in that mansion, I obtained a skill called ’submission’ where I was inclined to do whatever they wanted, as long as it wasn’t sex, for my own survival.

I mean, I don’t even know if I should call to a skill, but that still seems to be embedded in me. So, as much as I want to own something, as much as I don’t want to share, I have no choice but to be submissive and let them do whatever they want.

Since... To begin with... They own me and not the other way round.

"Ugh." I pressed my hand on my head, feeling a disturbing headache.

"Are you okay?" Hae-Jin asked and I nodded, despite not being fine at all.

These thoughts were circulating too much and giving me a headache.

"Yeah, it’s... I’m fine." I said but but my lip and furrowed my eyebrows.

These disturbing thoughts... When will I be free from them?

No matter the amount of reassurance I receive, I still end up thinking thoughts that I shouldn’t.

Even if they love me... What’s the reassurance that their love will last forever?

My heart shook at that thought. It was such a realistic thought that shook me to my core. A realistic and stupid thought, I’d say.

It was nothing more than a thought meant to make me waver and push me around.

If I stand on my ground that my masters love me, will do anything for me, and will never leave me, then I must believe it as so for it to last.

But what... What is this sudden uncertain feeling?

Anyway, if Seo-Jun truly cares for my feelings, he won’t try to do something like that while I’m around.

"I think we should head back to Seo-Jun’s office," I said as I stood up.

"Okay," Hae-Jin said and stood up as well.

We started heading for the elevator and my mind swirled.

A sudden thought crossed my mind.

Deep down, I had a feeling, no, a rather random knowledge from my past life.

We were having drinks after a long day at work. I was literally dragged along because I didn’t want to be a part of it. I didn’t like drinking that much, anyway.

I don’t know my alcohol capacity either.

So, I didn’t plan to drink much and only took sips of Soju while my coworkers ranted on and on about work and love lives.

I had never been in a relationship before so I didn’t really understand what they were talking about. All I knew was the knowledge I got from romance and fantasy books.

But reality was rather bitter compared to the fantasy books so I never acted like I knew anything about love.

And then, something a guy said caught me by the hook.

He said,

"I can love my woman to bits. I can love so much that I would want to jump off a plane just for her."

Of course, it felt like simple gibberish he was spouting with a red face and hiccups in between. He was drunk, so I didn’t want to take him seriously but I strangely paid attention to what he was saying.

"But do you know that that’s not the extent of my love?" It was crazy, I thought at that time. "A love so strong like this can still get deeper. And do you know how?"

I got curious so I listened well.

He laughed, as if he didn’t plan to continue speaking, and then gulped down a shot like he was taking water before smacking his lips and said,

"Sex." He said, grinning from ear to ear with a flushed face and eyes that couldn’t stay steady on his audience. "I can worship my woman to bits, love her with all my heart and soul even before we have sex, but once we do have sex, it’s set in stone, I tell ya. Sex makes a whole lot of difference in a relationship."

(Hm, is that true? I’d love to hear other opinions on this)