CHAPTER 395: YOU DODGED THAT?

After taking off my clothes, I sat on my bed bare-chested. I didn’t do anything, just stared and stared into nothing.

What was going through my mind?

I couldn’t even tell because it felt like I was stuck in a trance.

I shut my eyes and dropped my back on the bed, opening my eyes to stare at the ceiling.

"What am I doing?" I muttered and then shut my eyes again.

I should just sleep.

I must be thinking too much because of tiredness. Yeah, there’s no way Seo-Jun would do that. I was just having such fickle feelings because I still had a bit of insecurity about our relationship.

Things... Will be fine.

But what will I do if Seo-Jun does go through with it?

The thought made me open my eyes, slowly and softly like someone who had given up, like someone who wouldn’t do anything.

Maybe it’s because I don’t know what I would do. I might be too hurt to actually do anything so I don’t know.

This is why I don’t want to think of this. It’s hurting me too much now.

I turned to my side, curling up my body as I hugged my knees and closed my eyes once again. I needed to sleep.

I was finally able to drift I to sleep after the hours spiraled around my head a few times, filling me with negativity and reminding me of how powerless I actually was.

An hour passed, two hours, and then threw hours... The sun had already gone down and what was left was the darkness that came with the moon.

Slowly, I opened my eyes, my lashes fluttering gently and then I saw a figure in front of me.

I couldn’t be too sure so I raised my head to see clearly, squinting, and then I heard a voice,

"Are you awake?" It was Jie-Yu.

What was she doing here?

"You took your sweet time with your beauty sleep." She said and I frowned. The voice may belong to Jie-Yu but the tone definitely wasn’t.

It was a complete turnaround for that sweet and timid girl from earlier.

Then, was this a dream?

"You know, I had to put in so much effort just to seem less suspicious." She added, tilting her neck as she grinned. "And I must say, you fell for it so easily."

I shut my eyes, trying to shut my mind from listening to any of that because I was beyond convinced that this was a dream.

It was my negative feelings playing tricks on me.

My insecurity was messing with me.

"Are you really closing your eyes right now?" She suddenly stomped towards me and then raised her hand to hit me but before she could, I opened my eyes and evaded it.

It was as if I knew exactly what she was going to do. I mean, it was the cliche plot but why in the world was I in a dream that I was so sure was a dream?

Shouldn’t I be waking up by now?

"You dodged that?" She asked, looking at me in disbelief but when I looked at her face now that she was closer, I couldn’t see it.

I could only see darkness and a pair of angry eyes glaring at me.

Once again, I was sure this was a dream.

"Why are you angry?" I asked, picking myself up. "I don’t think you should be the one angry right now."

"What?"

"I mean, I’m the one who was deceived. I’m the one who let a vixen in my house. So I should be the one angry."

"Pft, you said your house?" She began to laugh hysterically. "Please, in this house, you’re nothing more than a slave. A plaything for the Alphas. Seo-Jun told me himself. He said you’re just acting out now because you’re in favor."

I clenched my teeth. I knew it wasn’t true, it wasn’t even real but still... Hearing her say it... Hearing such words was so painful, and I closed my eyes once again, as if that would save me from the pain I was feeling in my chest.

"What? Does it hurt?" She asked, her mocking tone leering at me. "Well, they did say the truth is bitter so you just have to accept it and move on."

I listened to the mockery in her tone, the spite, the envy, the jealousy she couldn’t hide and it made me laugh, opening my eyes to face her.

"Sure, sure, I’m a slave. But at least this slave gets better treatment than the likes of you."

As soon as I said that, I got off the bed and decided to run.

Maybe if I walked out the door then I would be able to get away from this dream. This nightmare.

But just as I was about to reach the door, something caught onto my leg, and I fell, my face hitting the floor so hard that I should’ve woken up at this point, but I didn’t.

I felt the pain. I felt my nose bleed and worse of all, I felt my ankle throb. I turned to look at what caught my leg and saw it was steel cuffs with a long chain attached to the window.

The sight of it made me shudder in fear.

Why was my leg chained? What kind of setting was this?

It made me scared instantly. I hated this.

I hated that I was chained. Ah, I wanted to get out.

I didn’t want to stay in this dream any longer.

"Kekeke," I heard Jie-Yu’s impersonator cackle behind me. "What’s wrong? Weren’t you planning to run?"

I couldn’t even get away from her because this was the farthest I could reach.

Why? Why did I have to go through this?

Was this world against me now?

I didn’t... I didn’t like this feeling one bit.

"You said you got better treatment than me?" She asked as she leaned down and then grabbed a handful of my hair, causing me to grunt in pain. It hurt. "No matter how good they treat you, you’re still a slave. You have no freedom and you can never pick for yourself what you want."

"Ngh, you... You’re wrong." I said. "You’re very wrong."

"And what part of this makes me wrong?" She asked and I couldn’t argue back.

A slave being chained was very normal. A slave having no freedom to leave whenever they wanted was also very normal.

So, she wasn’t saying anything wrong.

She...

"Ah, a slave who dreamt of being the forever one for the four Alphas... What a delusion." She said and then slammed my face on the floor.

It took me by surprise but the pain was definitely there. The pain... Why wasn’t I waking up?

Why?

Tears brimmed in my eyes and before I knew it, they began to fall. Hot tears that showed my sadness and my fear.

She was right. Very right.

How could I, a slave, be able to stand by the side of the four of them? They were way beyond my league.

As I cried, she patted my head and said,

"There, there, I’ll help you. I’ll make sure to take very good care of the Alphas you care for so much." She said, her lips spreading wide over her face and I flinched.

Yeah, I might be a slave and might not be worth standing by their side... But that doesn’t mean I’ll give them up. I’ll never give them to anyone, not even if the world tears me apart.

Allow me to be this selfish because without this, I just might lose my mind.

And so, I turned, pushing her away.

She fell on her butt and I decided to finish this.

If I couldn’t get out of this dream no matter how hurt I get, then the one who I needed to hurt was this damn vixen trying to ruin not just my relationship with the Alphas, but Jie-Yu.

"What do you think you’re doing?" She asked, her tone as spiteful as ever but I didn’t listen. She watched as I went to pick up my chair and I lifted it.

"Don’t resent me too much. I’m just as selfish as you." I said, ready to land the chair on her but my body wouldn’t budge. It was as if something was holding me back. "Ah, so you have the power to control me now,"

"Get a hold of yourself," she said to me and something about her tone wasn’t right. I felt she was just messing with me and that it would all end as soon as I dropped the chair on her head but I still couldn’t move, as if someone was holding me back.

’What’s going on?’ I thought.

I couldn’t move, but it’s not like the impersonator couldn’t use this moment to get away from my reach and then laugh in mockery like she usually does.

"What are you plotting?" I asked, it the next thing that left her mouth was a silent and trembling plea,

"Please, wake up."

It stunned me.

What?

At that moment, my surroundings brightened and I finally saw what was going on.

I was in Jie-Yu’s room and there was someone holding me back. It was Min-Cheol and in front of me, on the floor, shaking and terrified, was Jie-Yu.

The world began to spin as I saw her cheek was bruised, like someone has hit her.

Did I... Did I do that?

Was I responsible for this?

"Are you finally back, Hyung?" Min-Cheol asked, his grip tightening around me, and I glanced back at him, confused.

What was going on?